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I feel nice, calm and at ease ๐
It’s strange how you can feel such contrasting emotions within days. And varying strengths added too, mind you. There’s still a number of things that I have to do, but, right now at least, I can see how unimportant it is in what time frame that takes. I mean, sure, when it comes to my…
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Time to catch up on the video’s I have made and shared but not actually seen yet ๐ ๐๐๐
I really do love the way I share. Even just writing that brings a sense of purpose and relief within me. Especially since most people would probably regard how I make and share videos as quite risky. If you have seen any of my most recent videos from Thursday just been, it’s Sunday at 11:15am…
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Yay!! I can finally have a coffee!! โ๏ธ ๐
It’s been a long time since I have started my day without a coffee ๐ Technically the medication I take now, wakes me up, but it’s really not the same. Plus I drink coffee for the taste and much as the stimulant ๐ ๐คฃ Getting my groceries delivered is so worth the small delivery fee. Plus…
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Day 165: 12th June 2022 | Waiting for groceries to arrive so I can make a coffee ๐
I don’t have any sugar, and since I drink black coffee, I need sugar ๐ I plan on having another quiet day, reading ๐
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I’m definitely too old for bongs ๐
I’m not feeling my best ๐
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Day 164: 11th June 2022 | I’m still here ๐
Finally having a day doing nothing. Well besides my grocery shopping online which is being delivered between 7am and 10am tomorrow. I don’t even have sugar for coffee. I have stayed in my pjs all day. It’s been lovely. This video is not great. Too dark. I know. But I’ve checked in and that’s the…
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Day 163: 10th June 2022 | Part 2 | I needed to talk some more ๐
Why do I write descriptions of all the video content? It really doesn’t make any sense, I’ve decided. If you would like to know what I have to say, please watch the video. Hit the like and subscribe to my channel if you want to keep watching me document my life to those of you…
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Day 163: 10th June 2022 | I guess I really needed to talk things out today ๐ข
This is a lot longer than I thought it would be. I’m not even sure if people actually watch them all when this long. It’s a recap of my week and how I’m feeling. What triggered me to feel sad again. Thankfully, I am feeling better since talking it all out. So, I need to…
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It’s 7:48pm. I am going to sleep
The only person causing me problems is me. It was easier when I didn’t care. Now I do. The realisation I had last night is what is causing this feeling now. I want to run away and never think about uni, or learning or helping or working or doing anything that causes me pain and…
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Day 162: 9th June 2022 | Part 2 | I managed to stop crying long enough to get Boss to the park ๐ข๐
Another afternoon spent in tears having to remind myself why I continue to keep staying on this planet. But I managed to at least leave my house and bring Boss to the dog park. I feel like I am failing at absolutely everything so I have to at least try and make sure Boss is…