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Day 171: 18th June 2022 | Part 3 | I’m ok ๐
Time to create a “rise above” mantra.. I’ve tried just using rise above by itself but so far it doesn’t work so I’m going to need to come up with a new one… I am feeling like myself again ๐
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I’m clean and my sheets are clean and that’s good enough ๐
Holy moly ๐ณ I really do need to be nicer and more compassionate to myself. I don’t know why I’m not. I am lucky in so many ways. I know and appreciate this. Right now it’s 5:33pm. I’m lying on my bed which has nice fresh linen on it, with my beautiful Boss cuddled up…
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This is ridiculous ๐
Why do I only seem to feel totally confident and myself when I am around other people lately??? Far too much in my head probably Ahhhhhhhhh
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Day 171: 18th June 2022 | Part 2 | I remember now …
I make daily videos to give me a purpose .. Because without one I am concerned about what will happen…
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Maybe I am depressed and just don’t know it ๐
I’m glad I have therapy on Monday. I miss my family so much but I have realised I just can’t deal with being rejected again, because I’m mentally too fragile. I can convince myself of anything if I really want to but I can’t keep pretending I’m alright. I think my depression is back. When…
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Day 171: 18th June 2022 | What is the point of these videos? ๐ค๐
I’m having a weird day second guessing everything ๐
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Sometimes I wish I had a group of girlfriends that I could do stuff with ๐
It’s no wonder I spend so much time alone. I barely have any friends. The one’s I do are all predominantly online. I have been invited to a 40th birthday today, but I know absolutely no one except the actual person holding it and unfortunately don’t have the energy to drive to the other side…
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Day 170: 17th June 2022 | Nice and short today ๐
It’s 5pm and I’m still in my pjs. I slept till approximately 1pm and have been watching Sex and the City since then ๐
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Day 169: 16th June 2022 | Part 2 | Just before the workshop update ๐
It has now just ended. will update once home. Update: have posted as time I uploaded
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Day 169:16th June 2022 | Park 4 | I did it! Paid Storyteller! Magic is Real! Stop lying about Santa ๐๐
Wow, what a day!! I am so happy and exhausted and just all the emotions along with soreness lol โบ In the gift bags were these cold/heat packs. I have two on my tummy now. So warm and lovely ๐ฅฐ I have had an absolute blast of a day! Today is the first day of…