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Day 195: 12th July 2022 | Part 4 | Uni got hacked! Someone has all of my personal information ๐ฒ๐ฌ
Just received an email from my university informing me of a security breach. “In addition to sending the SMS the unauthorised person downloaded the contact details of 46,980 current and past Deakin students. If you have received this message your email details were amongst those records.” Damn. What else can I say ๐
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Day 195: 12th July 2022 | Part 3 | My Ego is a Dick!! Thankfully I feel better now ๐
Making my last video definitely helped me, like it usually does, which is good. After I uploaded it, I went back to working on some of the weeks one content again and was happy with what I got done. I then spent an hour and 45 minutes talking to Randy on a video chat. We…
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Day 195: 12th July 2022 | Part 2 | Turns out I’m not relaxed about uni and instead am in tears ๐ข
I am so sick of anxiety. Of feeling like I’m okay, and then it hits me out of nowhere. Though, I guess it is more my ego telling me I am failing again because I am not prepared for my first class tomorrow. But I am trying to focus on the fact that I am…
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I feel really sad but I don’t know why ๐
I guess it could have something to do with how I was spoken to again this morning. But I really don’t know. It doesn’t seem to be connected to any thoughts, it’s just a feeling. I am at the mechanic now for my car window. He said he can definitely fix it but first he…
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Day 195: 12th July 2022 | Shout out to my friends who always make time for me!๐
If you read my written blogs you may have seen that last night I wrote a blog about needing to end a friendship that is no longer benefiting me. There are only so many times I can ask to actually see someone who is my friend and be ignored. I have reached my limit. But,…
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I am crying and can’t seem to stop ๐ญ
It’s like all at once; I can feel every single person who never bothered to make time for me, hitting me. But more than that, I just really miss my Mum. I’m never going to have anyone to hold me and tell me that they love me no matter what. I know this. I have…
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I have finally decided that a half friendship isn’t what I want so I’m ending it.
I have more than enough friends who I only speak to online. I don’t need one with someone who lives 20 minutes away and keeps literally ignoring me when I ask to catch up. Truthfully I want to end it right now I’m so pissed off at how I have just been spoken to, but…
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Day 194: 11th July 2022 | Bath was too hot so I made this video while adding some cold water ๐
The amount of times I’ve gotten into the bath then had jump straight back out is too many ๐ Least I’m getting better at not breaking the nudity rules on YouTube ๐คฃ I’m having a completely restful day. No Ritalin or even weed today. Though weed is obviously relaxing, I just don’t want to use…
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Bath time! ๐
Definitely time for a soak in the tub ๐ Not even going to take laptop to watch anything. I have started reading this โฌ๏ธ today so will bring it into bathroom withe but I dare say I will probably just relax with a face mask on ๐
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Mr X’s wife’s name is popping up everywhere lately!!
And just hearing it again now has made me remember that I actually feel asleep talking to her in my mind last night. It’s all coming back to me. I think because she has been on my mind for so long and I’m constantly reminded of her, that is why I reach out to her…