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Knowing other people are reading along with me feels nice ☺
I really like this new feature 😌
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Day 231: 17th August 2022 | OMG totally forgot to stop the music before making this! 😅
Thankfully, it is quiet enough to not be able to hear it in the video. Well, at least for the short bit, I checked when I realised the music was on. It’s far too quiet without music. It’s 7:54 PM, and I’ve been at my desk working on this assignment most of the day. Andrew…
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I am feeling much better after walking Boss 🐕😁
How cute is the main picture! 😍 I am back at my desk working on my assignment and feeling better about it. I know I will pass the assignment it’s just that perfectionist brain (ego!) makes me feel like absolute shit if I don’t get high grades 🤦♀️ Even knowing that I no longer have…
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Once again, crying over a stupid f*cking assignment!
I’m quite scared that this is going to continue until I have finished this degree. The only thing helping me to calm down is valium. Thankfully, I am prescribed a box of 50 tablets a month. I can’t seem to do any of this lab report without needing to take one. Sometimes two. I think…
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Dinner and a movie in bed ☺
I am going to try really hard to remember to focus on all the good in my life because I know I am extremely lucky in so many ways 🥰
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I was wrong before…
I thought I was all alone. But it turns out that there is a whole new level of being alone that I didn’t realise. I did this. I feel like a terrible person. Of course I don’t have any friends. At least now I know so I can stop embarrassing myself by trying to make…
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Day 230: 16th August 2022 | Woke up at 12:50 PM 😆
Guess I really needed to sleep. Feeling good today. Plan to spend the rest of today and the week working on my assignment.
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Day 229: 15th August 2022 | Finished Week Four Content 😁
Absolutely exhausted 🥱 I just got in bed 🛏 Going to read the nosleep story on Reddit if I can keep my eyes open long enough 😴 I am going to set an alarm for 7 am ☺️ I am praying I actually get up 😅 9:07 PM 9:33 PM. The rain has started. That…
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A change of scenery is what was needed ☺
I am enjoying being in here. It feels more peaceful since there’s not much in here. As it should, given how hard I worked to transform the room. Originally it was a spare room with a double bed for visitors. But it hardly got used. I used it for storage and hanging clothes on the…
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Time to do what I know I need to 😌
Focus on the reason I started all of this to begin with. Why I care enough to not go next door and take my neighbour up on his offer. I believe everything is happening exactly as it’s supposed to. Because it is. And yet the part of me so desperate to feel love deep down…