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Day 461: 3rd April 2023 | My eyes look terrible in this video and thumbnail ๐๐
Been fasting all day except for black coffee โ๏ธ I spoke to my doctor on a phone appointment, and she advised me to take the letter and results that have been sent to the cardiologist to the hospital tomorrow so they are aware of what’s going on with my heart since tomorrow is surgery ๐ซฃ…
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Day 460: 2nd April 2023 | This is nothing like how I thought today’s video would go ๐คจ๐ค
But that’s probably because I talked it all out inside my head before turning the camera on ๐ I’ve gotten into bed and turned my tv off. I watched the end of the movie and then put the bins out. I tipped my bedroom rubbish into the kitchen and put the normal and recycle bin…
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I’m afraid
And I’ve been trying to talk to my therapist like she suggested by talking to her through my camera the same way I speak to all of you. I very much like the idea and when I say trying it was ….. I cleaned the kitchen, vacuumed the kitchen, and then chopped a mix. Even…
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Day 459: 1st April 2023 | Been a lovely day; now I am ready to sleep ๐ด
So tired. Looking forward to a nice long sleep ๐ 9:14 pm
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I have not one memory from when I was five ๐ค๐
When you were five, what did you want to be when you grew up? That is all ๐คฃ
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Day 457: 31st March 2023 | I have stayed in bed most of the day and am now going to sleep ๐ด
Doesn’t the title just jump out and scream, “watch me” ๐ค๐ Not sure how I feel about anything right now. Second-guessing everything and no trust in myself ๐ I’ve been in bed all day binge watching Netflix and have just now turned my tv off before writing this. I’m ready to go to sleep for…
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Day 456: 30th March 2022 | Part 2 | Today’s video ๐ I have deferred this unit on the advice of my tutor ๐ฅ๐ฎโ๐จ
Tomorrow is the cut-off date. He said I have to put my health first and that this is the hardest unit of the full degree. I want to be feeling good when I do it, and right now, I am not retaining anything ๐ฅน I am so sad right now, but I understand why. My…
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Day 455: 29th March 2023 | Still feeling flat ๐
I’m at my friend’s place near uni. I’m working on my assignment while she still works. The assignment is making me feel so dumb. All I do is cry these past few days which sucks ๐ฅ Anyway better get back to it as it’s not going to write itself. 4:34 pm
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Day 454: 28th March 2023 | Boss needs to have surgery to have his toe removed ๐ข๐ญ
I am honestly just so exhausted but I finally got some more words on my document after making this video so I’m pleased with myself โบ๏ธ I’m so tired I’m going to crash as soon as I finish my toast ๐๐ด 9:33 pm It’s 10:50 pm, and I had just started listening to my night…
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Day 453: 27th March 2023 | So, there’s not enough blood getting to my heart ๐ฌ๐ฎโ๐จ
Now I need to see a cardiologist, but first, I have to get my family history of heart issues, and since my heart had a heart attack relatively young, I need to email him about it. I’m flat as f*ck anyway, though, so it’s not a big problem, provided I stay neutral ๐ I want…