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This black sd card was in the suv so I’m going to check if there’s anything on it π€
I have taken the SD card out of my camera and thankfully it is the same size so it appears that I should be able to check it π§ Oh. My. God. Major Realisation | I started this website and my YouTube channel to help me distract and distance myself from the extremely severe suicidal
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Time to play catchup while trying to figure out how to live stream using my new Sony ZV1 π§ππ
I’ve checked my history and the last video of mine that I had been watching is “Day???: 10th June 2023 |Part 2 | I’m exhausted and now all of a …” is what I can currently see π€ So, I’m starting where I left off. It currently says [watched] 15:44 – [remaining] hahaha it’s actually
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My shelf is a mess and the V keeps falling down ππ
Plus, I’ve just now realised that I started telling my new friend, Cassidy’s uncle, who came past for a visit on the way home from work, a story about not posting for a few days, but have only now realised that what I became blank on in the moment was the ending of that story.
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Conversation in my head…
I feel super duper happy. No you don’t. You feel no different to yesterday. Well, now that’s not true. * Yesterday I became upset after hearing from my sister. Actually, upset is not the wrong word. I became extremely emotional because I love my sister and her family, but I know I’m hard work. I
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Day 540: 22nd June 2023 | Today is a good day. I bought myself a new car βΊοΈ
1 Year, 5 months, 24 Days. I am very happy with my purchase. I will, however, be looking to see if I can find better insurance. I keep trying to update my website’s main page, but it looks so weird from my end when I try to view the updated preview which I don’t understand.
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Feeling better now π
Cassidy made a good point earlier when she said that maybe I’ve been feeling this flat the past few days because I needed to rest and let my rib continue to heal. I definitely haven’t been using my arm while lying in bed. I am focusing on how happy I am that my sister checked
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I feel so sad now I just keep crying π₯Ήπ’π
I don’t want to feel like this anymore. Everyone in my life treats me like I am the cause of everything that is wrong. I am not good enough as I am. I am mentally unwell. It affects me. I haven’t been able to get out of bed for two days. I am trying to
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Day 539: 21st June 2023 | My sister cared enough to check on me π
Days 536 – 538 | Experiencing a Bipolar Rapidly Cycling state according to my doctor who I saw on Monday the 19th of June. I haven’t felt like it matters if I make a video or not, since no one has even checked on me. Until this evening. My sister messaged me to check if
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Day 535: 17th June 2023 | I drove for over an hour check out a car π
And now I have over an hour drive home 4:07 pm
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Day 534: 16th June 2023 | I drove to my mechanics to get some advice π
I couldn’t handle another day stuck inside my house going bonkers π I really need to sort out a new vehicle as soon as possible given how nervous my current car makes me since I have no idea if my car is going to get me to my destination π I spent an hour on