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It’s definitely time for wine!
I really can’t deal with certain people today. But at least now I know exactly what has been causing all the feelings of anger to come up and know what I have to do. But for now.. it’s time for a glass of wine, or two and some vape and Netflix.
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Just took bike out for a short ride ππ
Got up late again today, but it’s all good. Decided to take bike out for ride. Ending up riding round the ocks and practising in carpark at end of my street, turning, like at an intersection or lights etc That’s what I sometimes struggle with. But I want to get really good so I need
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What is it inside of me that needs to come out?
I really don’t know what I am going through or experiencing right now but I have now bitten off two people’s heads today in messages and the second one I don’t even know why. I know its related to the first person and that these people who have both come back into my life after
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Googling to try and figure out what species this is π
UPDATE: I got it outside and it ew away π₯° So I’m Googling species to try figure out what this is since it wont fly outside when I opene the door. Just flew near me and I freaked myself out π€£ thankfully I can see it again. Its has the biggest stinger I’ve ever seen
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Still bribing him for cuddles π
And he makes a mess on my side of the bed π€£ Time to watch this movie π
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A clean vape and weed capsules full π
I’m still super sensitive today. Managed to get kitchen and lounge tidy and floors vaccumed but that was it house work wise but that’s ok. Finally filled out medication box and went to chemist to pick up meds I’d run out off. I have finally had to admit to myself that abruptly stopping taking all
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I was obviously wrong in thinking the sweats Im getting are from thc withdrawal…
I really thought it was thc withdrawal causing the sweats but I vaped ALL DAY yesterday prescribed weed only and it made no difference. And the sweats are very much happening throughout the day now not just night time so I definitely need to find medical paperwork about hyperthyroidism and make a new doctors appointment
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A tantrum was definitely the wrong word because I’m crying once again π₯Ίπ’
Sitting on my bedroom floor with the worse suicidal thoughts going through my head. Soany possible ways to go amd all so easy when done correctly. Believe me I spend a lot of time thinking about death. And how I can’t wait to get old and die. I have tried to kill myself enough times
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New addition to my wall notes β‘
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Prescribed weed is so much better π
That’s why it cost’s so much! π² My friend came to see me. A friend from my Mr X days. I talked everything out about how I’m feeling and how much I want to message him for his birthday because we used to talk about it and what I would do to celebrate with him.