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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 6 | I am going to vape weed for the rest of my life.
At least in the evenings if nothing else. I feel sad and have cried on and off all afternoon ๐ข I have no energy to write a description for this video. I just wanted to officially say, I was wrong, I am never going to quit vaping weed.
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It’s no wonder I have down days where I feel sad ๐
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My bed is my happy place when I’m sad ๐
It would be funny if it didn’t feel so bad, just how drastically my mood has changed from this morning. I think this book for strategies to deal with ADHD really triggers me. I still haven’t accepted that my life has been made so much harder when it didn’t need to be. I am still…
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I want my mum ๐ญ๐ญ
And yet we don’t even have a relationship anymore. She couldn’t even read the last message I sent her. Just told me “I’m not reading that”. Yet, all I’ve ever wanted is a good relationship with my mum. She’s still the one my inner child needs to tell me it’s all going to be ok.…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 5 | Tattoo Lazer Removal No.2
The actual procedure. The numbing cream worked this time! ๐ฅณ So grateful for being able to film this ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 4 | Tattoo Lazar Removal No.1
Just setting up
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I don’t understand why but I’m in tears ๐ข
Sometimes it really does feel like I am never ever going to be enough. Do enough. Be worthy ofy place in this world. I am reading this book on ADHD and yet instead of it helping me, it just sometimes enhances how much I have fucked up my life. I am so angry at myself…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 3 | I am achieving more than I realised ๐
One of the things I love about Andrew is that I learn something new every time we hang out together. Plus he never makes me feel crazy when I explain in person some of the things I talk about on here, or don’t know how to talk about, like my story regarding Mr X. He…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 2 | I’m glad wrapped up ๐คฃ๐คฃ
I really hope the numbing cream works this time because lazer removal hurts like a SOB! ๐ Two hours until I need to leave for the appointment so time to actually do some work ๐ It’s such an awkward place for glad wrapping ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | I’m up before my alarm!! ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ
Last night I really wasn’t feeling well and ended up taking two rat tests but both were negative thankfully. I have tattoo lazer removal today which is why I took them, but I feel good today so I’m happy ๐