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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 5 | Tattoo Lazer Removal No.2
The actual procedure. The numbing cream worked this time! ๐ฅณ So grateful for being able to film this ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 4 | Tattoo Lazar Removal No.1
Just setting up
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I don’t understand why but I’m in tears ๐ข
Sometimes it really does feel like I am never ever going to be enough. Do enough. Be worthy ofy place in this world. I am reading this book on ADHD and yet instead of it helping me, it just sometimes enhances how much I have fucked up my life. I am so angry at myself
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 3 | I am achieving more than I realised ๐
One of the things I love about Andrew is that I learn something new every time we hang out together. Plus he never makes me feel crazy when I explain in person some of the things I talk about on here, or don’t know how to talk about, like my story regarding Mr X. He
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 2 | I’m glad wrapped up ๐คฃ๐คฃ
I really hope the numbing cream works this time because lazer removal hurts like a SOB! ๐ Two hours until I need to leave for the appointment so time to actually do some work ๐ It’s such an awkward place for glad wrapping ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | I’m up before my alarm!! ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ
Last night I really wasn’t feeling well and ended up taking two rat tests but both were negative thankfully. I have tattoo lazer removal today which is why I took them, but I feel good today so I’m happy ๐
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I really need to remember and focus on the fact I am good enough right now.
That thought, or more correctly, that feeling is sometimes really hard to sit with. Especially on days like today. Days when I’m so exhausted I’m almost crying. Days when just getting up to do anything takes so much effort. I was completely spent by the time I walked out of the eye store. By the
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Looks like there was a reason one side of the back gate was never opened ๐ฌ๐
Fuck fuck fuck… I am too tired for this ๐ฐ The bike stand definitely needs to be put back together correctly when I go for a ride next too. At least I can get it to balance well enough to close. Better than before and as long as Boss doesn’t jump on it, it should
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I have a vege garden!! ๐๐ฅณ
There are no seeds planted yet, as I have no clue what grows in what season ๐ My gardener did get lettuce, carrots and zucchini seeds which was nice. Lettuce and carrots I wanted, but I’m not an overly big fan of zucchinis. Nichele can have them lol I do need to get some more
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Sometimes all the pills in the world can’t solve being completely and utterly exhausted ๐ฅฑ๐
Today is one of those days where nothing I can take, medication wise, is helping me. All I want to do is sleep. I slept through my alarm again and Rachel didn’t call so I was lucky to be woken up by Andrew mowing his lawns. That’s twice now in two days that Andrew has