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Day 112: 20th April 2022 | Today was such a better day! π
Been at my desk most of my. day. I am thrilled with how well my uni notes look! I’m very excited to learn all of the information inside βΊοΈ Plus, had an awesome meeting with work! I am so happy to be apart of it!! So, I am choosing to focus on all the wonderful
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I seriously love how good the theme of my website is now looking!π₯³
I honestly have only the nicest, most positive things to say about the Happiness Engineers at WorkPress!π Plus, they have left the test site open on my end, with all the premium functions still available until the end of May. That way I can play around with the themes and learn how more of the
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I am so happy with how well my uni notes turned out and look ππ₯°
Now all I have to do is learn absolutely everything in them π Then the very last unit after these three will be HPS301 Research Methods Intermediate, and then I will graduate from my undergraduate degree in psychology and philosophy π And this alone is something to be extremely proud of π
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No alarm set for tomorrow..
Mind, body and soul need all the rest they can thinn
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It breaks my heart when I find out people who I thought were actual real genuine friends, actually walk on eggshells around me; and that’s in text!
It turns out that every single person anround walks on eggshells. I thought it was just my family but nope, it’s other’s, I consider friends. People who promise to tell the truth but never do. The whole world lies and sometimes I wonder why I continue to fight it. I am a fantastic lair. Obviously.
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Day 111: 19th April 2022 | Part 3 | There’s still plenty of stuff to do π€π
Time to bind the last of my uni notes. Studying is really all that’s left π I guess this was how it was always supposed to be. I’m grateful for the few who talk to me. Update: 8:54 pm. Grammarly fixes all my mistakes, it’s awesome! πππ I got everything done. Now all I have
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Day 111: 19th April 2022 | Part 2 | Feeling better since Andrew came to visit π
Andrew cared enough to come past twice to check on me. I cannot comprehend how much that truly means to me. He even let me cry my eyes on his shoulder, while he gave a hug. Which is exactly what I needed, since Boss keeps leaving me when I start crying π’ I should clarify
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OMG I had a song playing in the background while I made a video and now have a copyright claim against me π€¦ββοΈ
I have selected the option to mute the songs.. I really hope it works, because I don’t know how to don’t myself
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Day 111: 19th April 2022 | Suicidal thoughts are running on overdrive ππ
TRIGGER WARNING: I am dealing with extreme suicidal thoughts right now. I’ve taken valium and some vape and am going back to bed to try to distract from the thoughts that keep bringing me to tears. And I mean, proper on the floor can’t get up tears. I will never try to make another friend
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Trying to fill my meds but I just keep crying π
I am so sick of feeling this unwanted. So easy to throw me away. My suicide ideation is really bad today. I have so much to do and yet feel so empty. People have been throwing me away my whole life. That obviously means I’m the problem. Every single time. So, now I must listen