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This was so simple and delicious ๐
I had left over veges from last night so made half a cup of rice with vege stock, oil and garlic. St amd pepper with vegan butter to vegetables then heated. Mix all together and it was so yum!!
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Day 115: 23rd April 2022 | Part 2 | Thankfully the dead bugs are coming off the weed much easier ๐
It’s dry now. It honestly looks like two branches of one plant ๐คฃ But at least I can make my weed oil now, so I’m looking forward to that ๐
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Day 115: 23rd April 2022 | Feeling … something .. not sure what ๐คจ
I am still fragile and easily annoyed. My gardener pissed me off by going against what I asked him to purchase, and instead, he bought what he thought was best at double the cost. And on top of that, the back gate is still broken. I had been able to prop it up to close
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Day 114: 22nd April 2022 |Part 2|Friends is on and I smoked my weed vape ๐
Calmer so that’s something. Had dinner, put Friends on tv, and used vape. I think days like today upset me because I am human and sometimes just get stick of living with this number of illnesses ๐ข
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Even though I know it’s not true .. I can’t help but feel so insecure about what I can say to people anymore because of my “severe trauma” ๐ญ
Just thinking about it makes me cry. I know not to dewl on it and move on from it.. it’s just that there’s one small problem with that… How do I know what I can and can’t say anymore? I finally felt like my true authentic self. I was happy and confident. But once again
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Day 114: 22nd April 2022 | Slept during the day and am now crying ๐ข
I needed to sleep after the past few days. crying really takes it out of me. I felt good when I woke up this morning and did what I needed to for work, then decided to go nap. So I have no idea why I now feel so shit, keep crying and have to distract
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I ended up sleeping most of the day but woke up feeling flat
I needed to sleep obviously. I knew that and was happy to sleep and let myself truly recover from past few days. I just don’t know why I now feel blah ๐ It’s 3:30 pm and I’m still in my pjs, drinking a coffee and reading a book on my bed. At least Boss has
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Got up around 7 am when Grant called ๐
I watched half of my therapy session back while waiting for medication to kick in, while drinking coffee. I really should have gotten in the shower then but instead decided I was too exhausted to shower safely, so had a nap instead. Now I’m lying on my bed thinking about everything I need to do,
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Day 113: 21st April 2022 | Part 2 | Another great therapy session!๐
My psychologist is truly amazing! Discussed what happened with person who threw my trauma in my face, when in fact, it’s very clear the real reason I got dumped as a friend is because of the dog rescue place that are hoarding animals and charging a fortune! On a much better note though, we talked
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Day 113: 21st April 2022 | It’s nearly lunchtime and I just woke up ๐
Thank goodness my appointment is at 2pm. Now I need to actually wake up lol