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Day 345: 16th December 2022 | This video did not go at all how I was expecting π€£π€¦ββοΈ
I take no responsibility for how you interpret my stories. content warning β οΈ OMG!! I can see it! π Graham can see it. I’m sure all of you can see it π€£ I swear I’m not angry in my videos unless I say that I am π π I am not angry but it sure looks
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I totally forgot about these books π
Until I found them while dusting the shelf in my bedroom earlier π Especially this one β¬οΈπ€£
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Day 341: 15th December 2022 | I just finished watching my therapy videos π€
To state the obvious first, the sound and lighting is not great so my apologies on that, I have no idea what was different π My biggest take away right now, and well, everytime I watch each of my therapy sessions back haha, only this time I’m actually saying it so hopefully I remember, I
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I’ve put on my PJs, turned off the heat, taken my nightly meds, and gotten into bed π΄
It’s 6:24 pm / 6:40 pm Days like today drain me. Especially given the past number of days I’ve had in a row, just mentally feeling like shit. But I really holding on to what my therapist said today; that it’s ok to feel sad. Because that is genuinely how I feel. Because I always
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Day 340: 14th December 2022 | Part 3|The end of my last psychology session for the year βΊοΈπ₯
The first part is just finishing uploading now. This is the end of my psychology session, due to camera and usser issues today π I still feel sad and have no energy to do anything other than make myself the toasted egg sandwich and cup of tea I made once I got home. I’m probably
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Day 340: 14th December 2022 | Part 2 | My last psychology session for the year βΊοΈπ₯
Well the majority of it, since I forgot to put my phone on do not disturb on, so a number kept calling which I was not answering but right near the end, I stuffed up and accidentally ended the recording π I recorded the last part, which I will upload after this, so they are
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I just want one day without crying π
As soon as I walked through my front door, the tears came. It’s this overwhelming feeling of isolation. Of being totally alone and knowing its all my fault. I didn’t ask to be different. To be treated differently than everyone else. I’m nearly 37 and all I do is cry. Every damn day. I am
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Day 340: 14th December 2022 | Turns out reading the study guide before attempting to study helps π
I have been making my life harder than it needs to be for the majority of it; it does appear π Last night, I decided to start reading the study guide for week 4, which is what I am up to, and it changed everything!! π€ Actually, knowing what it is I am trying to
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Day 339: 13th December 2022 | I’m starting to see where somethings I say don’t make sense π
Well, at least that’s what I think I’m trying to say, lol It makes no sense that I feel comfortable uploading videos like yesterday, which I have now watched twice, yet, I feel like I can never ever see the people from Sunday again, even though they were all nice to me … Andrew helped
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My flat tyre has now been fixed π
Thankfully, my neighbour and friend, Andrew, came to the rescue and was able to change the tyre for me. I am very glad we had already discussed and looked at the spare tyre prior to actually getting the flat, so the spare is perfect. It might even be better to get a cheaper second hand