7 November 2026 at 9:30 PM
Well, mentally and emotionally, I’m feeling so much better tonight, thankfully! 🥰
Physically, though? That’s a completely different story!
My right knee is now hurting just as much as my left, and for about the past hour, I think it’s actually been hurting even more.
The pain is absolutely awful.
From my lower back all the way down to the tips of my toes, I’m struggling so much that I can barely put weight on either leg anymore.
I’ve basically been confined to my bedroom since Wednesday, apart from getting to the toilet, which thankfully is just on the other side of the wall.
And even that short distance is becoming incredibly difficult.
I’m so grateful that I’ve got a disability chair in my shower because it’s making things a little easier. At least I’ve managed to wash my hair! Haha
But I’m absolutely exhausted.
Pain is exhausting. It’s mentally draining, causes so much brain fog, and makes even the simplest things feel like enormous tasks.
I’m honestly at the point where I’m wishing I had a wheelchair, just so I could move around without having to put so much weight on my legs.
And then there’s Happy! 😂
She’s decided that she wants to lie all over my legs tonight, which isn’t particularly helpful considering how much they hurt!
But I love her to pieces.
And considering how often I’m usually trying to convince her to cuddle up with me, I certainly can’t complain too much now that she’s actually doing it!
One thing I’m really happy about, though, is how far I’ve come emotionally.
I’m feeling much better about myself, learning to establish boundaries and reminding myself that my needs matter just as much as everybody else’s.
That’s something I’m genuinely pleased about. 💚
As for my physical health, I intend to ask Elean to make my hospital referrals even more urgent and follow up with the hospital.
I also think I need to see a neurologist because I’m becoming increasingly concerned that there’s more going on than I’ve previously thought.
I’m not a doctor, and I certainly don’t know what’s causing all of this.
I just know how much I’m struggling, and I desperately need some answers.
Right now, I’m practically bedridden, and the pain is absolutely awful.
But despite everything, I’m smiling tonight.
And that’s a good thing!
I guess I’m just so incredibly sick of being sick and tired all the time.
Even holding my phone is hurting, so I’m going to put it down, get comfortable and go back to reading my book.
Have a lovely night everyone ♡
Recorded: 7 November 2026 at 9:30 PM
Day of my video diary: 1774
Time since starting: 4 years, 10 months and 9 days (inclusive)
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