26 October 2026 at 10:06 PM
I honestly didn’t realise how late it was tonight!
I’d actually fallen asleep on the couch while we were watching Nobody Wants This on Netflix, and I’m so exhausted I could probably go straight back to sleep!
I binge-watched the entire first season when I was staying at the farm in Queensland and hadn’t realised there were two more seasons. So we’ve started watching it again.
I’ve also got a really sore throat and tongue tonight. It feels like I’ve got an ulcer or something.
Anyway, Luke and I went to Bendigo today and got a few things done before heading to the caravan park to collect the rest of the belongings that were still there.
Luke had the day off today, but he’s back at work tomorrow.
And I have to say, he’s done an incredibly impressive job of finding himself work!
He basically decided one day that he was going to get a job, worked out where he wanted to go, and the very next day he had one!
Not just any job either, but a really well paying one with a top company!
I’m incredibly impressed with how he went about it. I’ll let him tell you the full story himself, because it’s quite remarkable.
But as for me, I’m just feeling really flat tonight.
I don’t even know how to explain it properly.
My mind feels like it’s playing games with me, and I’m struggling with something that’s been weighing on me emotionally.
I’ve always believed that you should be able to trust your doctor completely and utterly.
And I still think mine is brilliant.
But something feels different, and I’m not feeling great about it.
I don’t really have the energy to get into everything tonight. I’m absolutely exhausted and honestly feel like I could stay in bed for a week!
Oh, and I almost forgot!
I realised yesterday that I’d somehow managed to upload exactly the same video from the 20th of October twice! 🤣
The funny thing is that they have different titles, descriptions and viewing numbers, and both have their own engagement.
So I don’t particularly feel like deleting either of them.
After all, they’re both part of the same journey, the same diary.
I must have been far more tired and mentally confused than I realised when I uploaded them!
But that’s where I’m at.
This is my diary. It’s not scripted or rehearsed, and it’s not always going to make perfect sense.
Sometimes I’m happy, sometimes I’m struggling, and sometimes I’m so exhausted I can barely string my thoughts together!
But it’s an honest record of my life, and I’m going to keep sharing it with you all.
I really need to get some sleep now.
Goodnight everyone ♡
Recorded: 26 October 2026 at 10:06 PM
Day of my video diary: 1762
Time since starting: 4 years, 9 months and 27 days (inclusive)
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