Today’s appointment went well, though I did cry in it 🥹

*Nicole brought up perimenopause as I walked in the door. Almost as though she had been talking about it prior with someone else, now that I’m thinking about it. I definitely didn’t mention it, given I always planned to talk about loss, grief and guilt. These things I actuallt need help with because I’ve been struggling with them.

I wanted to talk about Boss and my sister and what’s happening with my health, weight and how it’s making me feel. Which as you’ll see, is ncot good. I don’t like how I currently feel at all.

I have since realised since getting home is that I need to actually start attending all of classes that are wonderfully available through my health insurance in a town over. It’s so cute out here. I love it ♡

Not going to lie, I never used to be able to talk about topics such as what is happening with my chronic constipation. Honestly, just typing that makes my ego (human/3D self), me embarrassed just thinking it let alone telling you it. Cringe worthy really  , V

Also, it appears as though I’m suffpering from car sickness or something.3l I feel unbelievably nauseous right now, as I did on the way in.

It’s over 2 hours drive in each direction to attend these sessions now. I’m going to switch to telehealth appointments again.

Merv saw a psychologist for the first time today too which he said went really well. His next appointment will be in person but after that he can switch to telehealth too 😊

We still have 1 hour and 8 minutes of driving to go and I honestly feel like I’m going to throw up. I’ve taken anti nausea medication but it’s not working 🤢

4:22 PM

Side note: 8:43 PM | I have had this page open amd have written amd rewritten and moved/deleted extras parts added. I’ve decided to just hit post. Thought I’d write this note to help out lol