That’s going to make it hard to become a public speaker, though, truth be told, I think there is a part of me that has sort of given up on that idea. I like talking to all of you here, because I am alone with my thoughts, or Netflix. Universitiy study happens with I’m enrolled, which thankfully I am not. Anyway, I was thinking something in my head and wanted to talk about it out in reality, but instead of filiming it, I wrote it down. I had meant to only wrote a brief note to ensure I wouldn’t forget, but, I just ended up writing all of it.

I see myself in two ways right now. It is both fascinating and frustating to have self awareness to a level where you are viewing life with multiple persceptives. But in realisty, down he in 3D, I make no sense, tell stores that I find

Or maybe, I just stop talking to ………..

Honestly, I have no idea about anything anymore because along with ….

Does this only happen when I’m stoned? No. Am I stoned? Yes. What do I want to do right now?

I’ve been helping me friend throughout the day, and now I am ready to lie down and relax watching some Netflix. I am watching the latest season of Workin’ Moms, since I’ve been watching thrillerm mysteries for so long lately, and I wanted something funny, and this definely is.

Something is definitely up within me because I really do have a lot i need to get off my chest. But for some reason, that I don’t know, I feel almost self conscouis but I don’t know why.

Or maybe it’s because I have no idea in what way how or i will talk to my camera, and I really don’t have any interest in making video’s that are not for publishing. I’m not even entirley sure why I feel it is important, but it is, that I keep making them. But even I am over the short ones left until right before I’m ready to go to sleep.

Right now in this moment I am asking myslef why I don’t just turn my camera on. But I don’t know how to explain the feeling of why that just isn’t something I want to do right now.

Then again, this entire story could all just be because I am stoned hahaha

It’s only 3:50 pm in the afternoon lol there are still plenty of hours in the day