And in the way I need to to let it out

I haven’t even talked to my psychologist, who told me to use it as a therapy technique. I thought I would have done it almost straight away, but I kept pushing it back, and now, I’ve been thinking about all the things I want to talk about and haven’t yet. I obviously have a blockage somewhere.

Actually, come to think of it, I just remembered earlier that I must always remember to tell my stories from a place of love. You can tell the same story in different ways, it’s all in how you deliver it.

It’s only 6:42 pm, and I’m lying on my bed, which is made, still in my pyjamas from this morning. I have had a peaceful day. Though I have just found out that the online grocery purchase I made before midnight because I knew the prices were going to change at midnight is no longer valid because it turns out I went into the modify order part to add something, potato chips, I can’t believe it 😅😆 but I didn’t complete the change. I guess I thought it would just revert to the original booking. I was wrong. So, bye-bye, online grocery specials 🤦‍♀️🤣

I chose BBQ pork with noodles for dinner tonight, and it was delicious. It tasted so much like the meat version, only dead animal free 🐕🐄🐈🐑🐖

Though I haven’t been able to finish the last couple of meals, I had already put tonight’s dinner in the microwave before I saw the leftovers from last night in the fridge.

I must say, tonight’s meal is delicious. I think what I’ve decided, depending on what is available and the different number of meal bundles, I will select what meals I want based on what I like the most from this box. At first, I thought I would keep getting the same variety box, but now I don’t think so.

Here’s something interesting, I have finally started doing deep breathing exercises. Almost involuntarily, much like ice and meat. I have been trying for years, but usually just return to being me. Though, I don’t usually feel as tense or wound up as some people think I can be. I am now just having a realisation and memory sort of; this is usually only in highly stressful situations like tafe or uni or certain types of work in the past many moons ago.

I am watching Gone For Good on Netflix. It’s really good. I am so cosy and warm right now, lying in the dark, listening to the rain as I type this. During the day, I use my thumbs to type and can type relatively fast but in the evening or even after just doing something which has put a strain on my hands, prime example, carrying my shopping in one bag because I didn’t bring more inside or grab a trolley and therefore ended up carrying a bag that was way too heavy, and resulted in severe pain, so in the evening I only use one finger to type so everything takes so much longer 🙄

Writing that probably dumb, must put phone down 🥴