This morning I was awake before my alarm. Properly awake. Yet, I did what I thought I had already learnt not to do, though I only registered when relaying the story to Andrew, and that is, instead of getting up straight away, I decided to wait for my alarm to go off. As usual, it was the wrong decision. When my alarm went off, I’d already started drifting back into sleep.

I ended up snoozing until I couldn’t snooze anymore and then just kept on sleeping. Once again, if it wasn’t for Andrew, I probably would have slept most of the day. I am glad he woke me up. It was 9 minutes before 10 am, so by the time I took my Ritalin after breakfast it may have been around 10:30 or so. It’s 9:43 pm right now, and I can definitely say that starting at that time and splitting the last three at the times I’m supposed to is too much. I have to take them as early as I can.

I’m smoking a joint, trying to unwind but feeling tenser than ever. I’ve taken a valium and muscle relaxer with my nightly meds but so far, nothing is helping the intensity and the back pain I’m feeling. Plus, even though I only put the smallest amount of tobacco in my joint, it still tastes disgusting, so I think joints will stay a social thing or if I’m having a drink and want one.

I still need to fill my pillbox, which I have everything organised next to me to do since taking my meds when they aren’t organised is another thing that very easily does not get done, even though I know skipping medication randomly is not safe or sensible at all. I had to take my morning meds with my night meds earlier after I shut my computer down because I am wrecked and really can’t be bothered filling it, even though I know I need to. But in case I don’t at least I’ve had my meds.

Especially since I really want to sleep but until my body unwinds I’m not sure how, aside from actual sleeping tablets and I don’t want to take them. Oh actually, I take that back 🤦‍♀️😆

Another thing I’ve been trying to complete for a few days is trimming and painting my toe nails since they were in need for a fresh coat. I’m using that 60 second fast drying that I bought from Chemist Warehouse, though off the top of my head I can’t remember exactly when. Maybe a couple of months 🤔 I still need to paint the second coat of black then extra strengthening clear top coat.

My meds and weed are finally starting to help somewhat so I’m going to finish my nails and then fill the box while they dry. After I’m going to take some of the sleep support and read a nosleep story and put my nighttime meditation on

The point to this story…

I have set the alarm on my phone for 7 am with no snooze option. The Google Nest is back in the kitchen and has a 7:15 am alarm on volume 10. And I have removed the alarm clock from my bedroom and put it in the bathroom set to extra loud buzzing for 7:30 am. That way, if I manage to sleep through the first two alarms, somehow, the alarm in the bathroom will do the trick. I want to start getting in the shower first thing in the morning. I should leave my meds to take first thing in the morning before jumping in the shower. There’s still plenty of time to eat a decent breakfast. I need to start eating a big full breakfast. It’s my main meal of the day. I’m just now realising 😯

And now I’m tired again. I haven’t put the phone down, just slow and tired. And now I want martime on toast with a cup of tea. Ah, perfect; I can do what needs to be done while I have that 😋

Sleepy Livy 😴

10:31 pm