I literally picked up my groceries two days ago….

And yet, I’ve looked in my fridge, freezer and pantry several times now and I don’t want any of it.

I need to eat but seriously am just at a level of meh it’s almost asnif I just don’t care which strange because I do.

Every single thing I have done starting with quitting smoking ice is because I care. But someone has to. I am one of many all ve the world here to help raise the vibrations of our planet. I see everything perfectly clear in a bird’s eye view. I can see the long term, generations to come changes that need to change to give our species any chance of survival.

It’s just down here in 3D I either feel like time has slowed down or what often that there’s never enough time, for anything.

Being severely triggered by clocks counting down started around mid-spring to early summer 2015. It was like this clock starting ticking in my mind. A bright red digital clock counting down. It ended on my 30th Birthday.

Now, I have been weird about clocks time since I was a little kid. I don’t know. I didn’t then, I still don’t know now but everything is different now. Except the ticking down timers, it’s like magic. I’m good, I’m good, everything is ok, I know what I have to do. More than that, I actually know how to do it. I’ve paid hundreds of dollars in tutoring for this unit. Thank fuck I did to. The Universe bought the kindest most amazing tutor, but like not only a tutor, he does counselling for people with ADHD. I mean, those who you who’ve been following along for awhile will know just how much I’ve been putting it out to the Universe to help me. I am struggling in what feels like every aspect of my life right now and the only thing I’m holding onto right now is how soon this will be over ๐Ÿ˜ฎโ€๐Ÿ’จ

The trimester ๐Ÿ˜“ Not the entire degree ๐Ÿ˜–

Right now I don’t think I’ll actually be moving at all for a little while ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

I’m nicely stoned now sitting on my couch listening to INXS the only light is the salt lamp and computer screens reminding me on how much I have to do lol

Wrote the next two paragraphs first then something wrote this above ๐Ÿ˜‚

I’m always nervous before an exam, have been since way back to being a young kid.

Noticed earlier that I think that because this exam is freaking me out on a level that even I can’t understand, because, in all fairness to myself, my grades are pretty ok, I think I’m dissociating more and more the closer the clock clicks down. It’s already started.

Ooo playing with the font is cool ๐Ÿ˜Ž

Ah, time to get up, reheat my coffee and finish what I was working on before ๐Ÿค“

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