I am so disappointed in myself 😥

I saw what I had to do but couldn’t 😭

Now I just feel like I have worked so hard to be a better person, to not let my mental health and physical conditions ruin my life 😔

But days like today scare me because I couldn’t rise above the darkness and in doing so it has dragged me back down into the depths of hell where suicide thoughts and self harming are flying through my mind and all I have been able to do is sleep 😢

Not restful sleep though as I am in far more pain and more mentally and emotionally exhausted than before and am now even more behind on uni 🥺

So, now I’m staying in bed for the rest of the night and vape some weed and watch something on Netflix before going back to sleep 😴

Update : 2 minute noddles for the win for dinner lol 😆