I have no idea how YouTube chooses who to randomly send whatever. I.e. I don’t know how people find my videos, besides the people I have actually told.

I am extremely proud of myself and my ability to share like I do. Other people’s opinions about why I share everything have nothing to do with me, so I don’t ever think about them. But I guess I can see how someone might come across my site or YouTube channel, who only watch a few videos, that maybe people will see me badly. I don’t know. I know that I am doing the best I can. I know that I can support someone in the way this potential client I met with wanted. But I knew not to say anything. At the time it was because I didn’t want to “jinx” myself, but then I laughed it off, reminding myself that I don’t believe in that.

Ah but alas.. I do believe we all have a Higher Self and intuition. Sometimes it’s really difficult to distinguish between our intuition and our ego. Even now, I still get confused.. I told myself not to mention the interview I had in any of my videos before I had heard back. I wish I had listened.

I can’t help but feel sad. On top of sad. I truly thought I could have helped someone but it very much now appears it wasn’t meant to be.

On a more positive note, I received an updated contract for my Storytelling job with an increased workshop rate. Specifically per 60 minutes. Moving forward we are to always make note of the time the workshop goes. I can’t disclose anymore specific details in the contract

I have a new workshop coming up in October. This time I plan to get help actually scripting what I want to say and then memorise it before the actual event. I have learnt that this is important otherwise I go blank. Then I don’t even remember what I said in my first workshop in Brisbane in June…

It’s 11:52 pm. I couldn’t find the movie on Netflix when I went to look so I put Friends back on. Now I am writing this. I think I will go to sleep soon .

I ended up eating two of the above ⬆️😅