Before speaking to my doctor on Thursday.
Even though I agree with my psychologist, I have to admit, if I’m going to be medicated for the rest of my life, which, let’s face it, I probably will be… I really feel like if a higher dose makes me feel even better and more “human/normal” I may as well take it.
OMG, I really can see just how much of a difference there is in me. I mean, the only person holding me accountable is me and that’s in the sense of writing these stories.
A story can be any part of your journey..
Right now, is the story of filling my pill box and being extremely selr aware of how easily I can justify things in my head, “you know she will agree to the 200mg increase anyway” and “it’s Tuesday night, you are speaking to her on Thursday morning so it would literally only be tomorrow morning” and yet, I am choosing to do the right thing first and speak to my doctor.
Being a responsible adult feels rather nice.
Anyway, my dinner is now ready, so I will finish filling up my meds afterwards. And no, I still haven’t managed to make deviled sausages but today have vegan sausage rolls and bean salad 🙂