I’m not getting anything done, not so far, at least 😅

The closest I have gotten to sorting out my clothes, is bringing the donation bags into my room and leaving them on my bed.

What I have done, is watch the video, I made and uploaded this morning. I think I may have mentioned I was going to do that in another post actually 🤔😳

I have now finished watching it and have seen that I was right, there is at least one story I didn’t finish which I will in next video.

I am trying to convince myself to get up and do stuff, but I can’t seem to get there.

I don’t feel sad or flat per say, just stuck. This feeling of being stuck really sucks.

But maybe it’s also because I am not mentally ready to start. Maybe this is my body’s way of telling me I need to rest. It’s been a very jam packed emotional number of days.

I am pretty sure that I have realised that I haven’t watched the two videos I made after dinner on Thursday night. I thought I had but now I’m not so sure. If I haven’t, I’ll watch them and then reassess where I’m at and how I am feeling.

Thankfully now that I know I haven’t actually been given written notice, I can allow myself this extra day to rest. I think given everything I have learned and been through from just last week alone, my body is not yet ready to get up and go.

I am in pain in multiple ways. Physically I mean. And thats besides the tiredness and not feeling mentally ready to start doing what I need to.

So, for now, I am going to listen to my body and what it needs and right now, it currently still needs to rest.

I am hoping that by tomorrow morning when I call Rachel, I will be ready to get up with her at the same time and start doing what needs to be done. Perhaps starting with my work videos after having a shower and washing my hair, might be a great place to start. I am even going to wear make-up and straighten my hair 😂

And I think by now it goes without saying, you will all get to see the rehearsed, practice videos, since I am not even sure what exactly I am going to say yet.

For now though, I am going to go back and chexk those couple of videos that I am not sure if I have watched yet, and continue cuddling with Boss, my very best friend ❤️