Huh. Just like that, it’s finally hit me.
I say I don’t trust him because I know I shouldn’t. And on the surface level I don’t..
I have just realised why I haven’t shared the story, when my website has been open for over a year. Which I opened on his wife’s birthday. So, every year I celebrate another year of this blog being opened, she celebrates her birthday..
I feel so connected to her lately. She is all of my dreams, though I’ve never met her. Just spoken on the phone a few times and messages. But, I can’t help but think of her, because, when it’s all said and done, we love the same man.
But I have realised that even if I never get to see him again in front of me, it’s ok, because this lifetime is just a drop in the bucket in comparison to all of eternity that our Higher Selves spend together..
I love you. You know who you are. I know why you did what you did. It’s ok. It had to happen. It’s all happening as it’s supposed to..
The world is falling apart.. we could very seriously end up living through a world war…
But after the darkness comes the light…
So right now I continue to pray. To the Angels the Universe and our Higher Connected Consciousness. You have been my driving force for over five and a half years..
I am sick of living in fear regarding how much I will be judged for loving a married man. But I do. I love you so fucking much.
I know you know. I can feel you too ..