Still really need to learn how to use this website I pay for better than I currently do lol 🤦‍♀️😆

I’m choosing to focus on the positive, even though I totally forgot to actually post the first video I made yesterday, which was my 36th birthday. I uploaded it to YouTube but not my website 🤦‍♀️

But, hey, at least I made video number 2 lol, which I’ll be uploading after this 😅 so, so far, I’m off to a good start ☺

Though in full disclosure, its been so long since I made daily videos, which lasted for a year. Back then it was different though. In so many ways as well. I didn’t change names, I didn’t spend any effort looking into the legalities of posting videos online with other people’s faces and names in it.

At the time I remember I was very adamant about telling my story as authentically as possibly and always just had the belief or idea, maybe both, I’m not sure, that, as long as you post the truth, no one can legally hurt you. I have since done a lot of research, so am very aware of the rules and laws, and honestly tried for a few minutes while my video link above was uploading to YouTube yesterday morning, on Google, as my friends would all have to sign waivers to appear in any of my videos, even though I use false names for everyone and I don’t have any social media.

The only platform I use besides posting to this website, is Reddit, and I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t really call Reddit social media. It’s more like anonymous forums on everything. Literally, everything from what I can tell 😅

The other HUGE difference between now and then, which, for the record technically started on the 1st of October 2017, even though my “tester” video, made on the 27th September 2017, was pretty good I thought so, even though there’s a couple day’s in between, I always counted that original tester video too lol ..

I stopped at one year.. it was the videos made during the last months of 2017 and from watching them back, that lead me on a journey that resulted in me challenging myself to an entire clean year of 2018. This meant, absolutely no alcohol, no weed, no cigarettes and obviously no drugs of any of any other kind (not including prescription medications because that’scompletelydifferent). I considered 1 puff, 1 sip, 1 of anything a complete failure.

This was what I called, a personal experiment. “My 2018 Sober Year Challenge”. I wanted to know if I, a person who at this point in my life had been at university since the first week of March 2017, had been volunteering at the national 24/7 sucide hotline for just under a year, and was only clean off ice at the time, a few months over year, but still smoked a decent amount of weed. Nothing like how much I smoke now, but I wanted to prove to myself that I could stop all of these things at once and make it the entire 356 days.

But after awhile I just started feeling silly making the videos though. Like who is ever going to actually see these? It’s going to take someone who understands technology and editing because of the what I said above. So once I hit 1 year, on the 1st of October 2018, I just stopped making videos. Now they are locked on a hard drive in a safe just in case I am able to ever post any of them..

Wow, it’s 9.14pm. I had no idea it was so late. My alarm is set for 11.55pm incase I fall asleep before hand. I’m in my meditation room. Needed to find my zen after what happened with Sirri. I am writing a blog about it but I am exhausted once again so once i publish this and upload second movie, I’m going to heap up some food and go finish watching the movie I was enjoying earlier..

Oh and to sump up my sober 2018 year, I did it. I’m pretty sure I have even written about it 🙂