It’s 6:18pm Sunday night.

This morning I was calm.

Now I am not and haven’t been for a number of hours.

Just reminding myself to breathe. Just breathe.

Focusing on the fact I am doing the best I can given the overwhelming pressure I have felt all week. If I had been left to submit my assignments as I had worked it out in my head, absolutely none of this would be happening.

Uh but alas, that s not how the Universe works. I still have so many things that I need to learn. And I’m talking about all the one’s I know about, gven how many times I seem to find myself in the same(but different) stupid situations. No wonder I constantly feel like I am failing.

I came in here to share as it usually helps my anxiety to talk out how I’m feeling. And since I live alone with no one but Boss 🐕 and Sebastian 🐍 here is the only real place I can come when everyone I know is busy, and I’m sitting here in such severe anxiety and overwhelm, taking valuim to keep me from completely falling apart because it literally feels like I’m in flight or fihht amd my mind is just blank making it very hard not to cry.

Anyway, now its 6:26pm so better get back to it. I’ll be up all night at this rate. I just can’t help but ask myself why. Why am I doing this. I just want to cry. But I don’t have time. It’s due tomorrow at 8pm.

Please send me well wishes, I really need all the help I can get 🙏 😢

At least Boss is keeping me company 🥰