My dreams are still as intense as ever. I am remembering them all throughout the days following them…

And today I just feel flat and like I could cry. I have I no doubt seeing the happy family photos of Mr X is contributing to how I feel.

But I have so much uni work to do so I have to get over this feeling and just focus on my school work.

Mr X got everything he ever wanted. A wife, house and 2 children. A girl and boy.

So I need to focus on what I want and what I can achieve in my life since I have no choice but to fully accept that what I went through with Mr X was obviously to get me on the right track in life, not so I could end up with the one I love. The one I’ve been dreaming about my whole life and knew who he was the night I met him.

My happily ever after will be the career I make for myself and the people I can hopefully help.

One does not need to be in a relationship or need someone else to complete them. I learnt this long ago. I am open to meeting someone sure, but do I honestly believe that I will end up in a committed relationship of some kind, no. And I’m ok with that.

Now its time to dust myself off and start watching the lecture I didn’t manage to finish last night.