I had to re log into everything on my new laptop. This included needing to login to Facebook for some reason to be able to login to my desktop Messenger app.

So since I was on Facebook I thought fuck it and checked his wife’s account since he never used to use social media and as far as I can tell, except for snapchat, which my phone told me about, he doesn’t appear to have any now either. But her profile had heaps of photos of her and him and 2 beautiful children. It’s obvious based on how old the girl looks that he did in deed know about the pregnancy when I last saw him.

I already knew he had a daughter. But today I now know for certain he has 2 children. A girl and little boy. They look to be a couple of years in age difference. Absolutely gorgeous. Truthfully all of their family photos are beautiful. They are a good looking family.

I am happy for him. He always wanted children. A boy and a girl. I looked at the photos for so long. Even took a photo of a couple with my phone.

It’s hard to describe how I feel but I guess in all honesty I am happy that I now know for sure. I am praying that they are as happy as they look on Facebook but am obviously aware you can’t really gauge anything from a few photos. But this isn’t about them. What they do and how they live their life has absolutely nothing to do with me. And I honestly wouldn’t have a single thing to say to this person I know realise.

The Mr X I know is no longer the same person. Sure I don’t think any of his inner stuff has changed but his life is literally he family now. Those two, Mr X and his wife will be together forever in this life time. I can now truly see it. They were able to put every single thing (its a hell of a story) behind them and have 2 kids. There is clearly no breaking them up. And that’s ok. I had to live through everything I did to get to where I am at.

Truthfully I am in a calm peaceful sort of acceptance. I don’t know. I am happy I know. I am happy they are happy. That he got the life he always wanted. But most of all I am happy that I found me. It all started with Mr X, but at least now, I know it was all really about me.

I let you go Mr X. Thank you for all the lessons. I will always love you but I will no longer look for you in everyone I met. I pray you always find peace and happiness and truly love life your family and yourself ♡