Which is the positive high vibrational way of saying.. stop second guessing yourself!!!

Because it’s been a strange few weeks. I can really see that now. Hindsight and all that. I have learnt some very intense lessons that I am absolutely positive I will remember for life given how much grief I’ve been in the past few days.

But that’s a story far to fresh for me to try and tell right now.

All that matters is that I trust myself. My psychologist says I’m afraid because I now actually have something important to me that I don’t want to lose. Going to uni and work and aiming for future degrees.

I keep reminding myself that I know what I’m doing. That I have actually got this.

And now thankfully, in a werid kind of way, I at least know how important my goals really are to me and that I need to snap out of this werid fog I’ve been in and stop making dumb mistakes. Because that’s what I’ve been doing. Not thinking and making really dumb mistakes. Especially in the realm of wanting to help everyone I can, without actually really thinking the entire situation through. I see that now. And I have learnt.

I have spent the past few days unable to get out of bed. Needed my psychologist to call me even though she’s out on maternity leave, and basically spent the past three days either sleeping or crying or zoned out with valuim and weed.

This morning I woke up fresh and new. I truly have learnt from the mistake I made, and in fact may not even share this particular story as I am now realising not every story needs to be shared..

Anyway, I was up at 6am and straight into reading my textbook and taking notes. Had to have car at mechanic by 9am so took all my school work with me and studied there for 3 hours. Back home, I kept studying until 5ppm, bar and couple short refresher breaks. Didn’t even touch vape (weed whatsoever) until after I had finished studying for the day 😁

I feel so good for it. Now I’m about to eat some dinner, read some reddit and then go to sleep. Because I definitely plan to continue putting the alarm on at 6am really loud and leaving my phone in the kitchen 😝