It’s the 1st of January 2021 and I already feel like I’m failing at being a calmer person. All I wanted to do today once I woke up was watch a new show on Binge. Super simple I thought. Until I went to open Binge in my Smart Tv and the app os not there. 30 minutes later and I’m still trying to figure it out. I got so close too just before. Had the Binge app open on the google play store which i has to painstakingly type everything in on the stupid tv keyboard since Google Store also is not downloaded on my tv. I am beyond frustrated and had tears forming when I started writing this.

All I want is to be a calm person. To not let little things upset me and cause me to feel like I’m failing at everything, but unfortunately today is not that day. I am now actually crying while I write this. I guess there is more at play then just the stupid tv right now. I feel so frustrated and upset and really I don’t know why. I can always just connect my computer to my tv in my bedroom and watch what I want and deal with this another day.

But given I didn’t go to sleep until lunch time yesterday since being awake since before work on my birthday I really didn’t want to spend the day in bed, even though i only woke at 1:15pm and its only 2:30pm now. I really hope I can figure this out. I am proud I haven’t thrown or broken anything since it’s something I would have definitely done it the past, and I am happy that I now have this blog to distract me to do something useful instead of allowing the anger and frustration and upset over not being able to do something I consider should be easy. I know this is something I have to continue to work on until I master it, I guess I jut feel even worse today, given its literally the first day of 2021 and I already feel like a failure. I know am I not, I just have to work on not letting these lower vibrational energies and feelings get the better off me.

Now time to try and do this again. Wish me luck. All I want to do this afternoon is watch Binge.

UPDATE: I have just read that Samsung Smart TV’s earlier than 2017 do not support Binge. Mine is 2015. So there you go. Back to bed to lie down and watch after all. 2:57pm.