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Day 581: 2nd August 2023 | Part 2 | My hallway notes are coming in handy!!ππ₯³
I remembered last night while I was reading some of them that they are specifically for this unit as well as the personality unit that I did in trimester two last year. I am finding them very helpful so am spreading them throughout the house to places where I will see them all the time
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OMG, for the first time ever, or, in as long as I can remember, I have actually put reminders into my phone for tomorrow and I am so proud!
I know it may sound silly but I’m seriously not kidding about how hard I find even some of the most basic things to do, simply, because, I am alone. Well, not simply I guess because I definitely don’t feel down or depressed etc, but getting out of bed is quite difficult at the moment,
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No wonder I feel chaotic, my house is a mess again and out of order, so, therefore, therefore my mind is too …
It’s moments like these when I wonder if learning what all the emojis mean, because, I can picture in my head the facial expression I want at the end of the incredibly long title, but I have no idea which one it correspondences to in emoji land lol I tried a heap but no clue
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I knew I was behind on watching my daily videos but I think I’m more behind than I realised π π
People are constantly telling me how brave it is that I upload all my videos before watching them. To which I always explain, you can’t edit something you haven’t seen and the entire point and purpose of this website and the corresponding YouTube channel. They have to be authentic. This much I know. And truthfully,
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Boss lasted as long as he could before wanting to get under the blanket with me π
Truthfully, I am surprised he lasted as long as he did π€£ I took these pictures β¬οΈ when I was speaking to Cassidy on speakerphone earlier. Boss is such a crackup when hearing other people’s voices. Especially the voices of people he has not met in real life. He is just so damn cute, so
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Day 581: 2nd August 2023 | This is short since made it at the hospital π
I had no idea that I would have to wear a gown, so that was interesting to begin with. I was already nervous after everything I was told yesterday about how the medication that tricks your heart into thinking it’s exercising since they said yesterday and again today that it is an extremely unpleasant experience.
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Not by a long shot and this prompt has just made it even weirder π«£
Was today typical? The energies are chaotic or at least the sure seem to be for me. I am 100% on edge, that much seems to be the case. I guess I have some right to feel all over the place given everything going on. I think I’m getting better at focusing on the good
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I think I am scared π’
I just didn’t know it until right now π₯Ή My heart is beating so fast, how much I can feel it is now making me cry. What if something is really wrong. I haven’t felt right for so long. I wrote “And now I just feel so alone” but realised that is not true. Especially
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Day 580: 1st August 2023 | First day of heart tests today βΊοΈ
I’m not even sure what they involve, just that today’s tests will take a couple of hours and tomorrow will be even longer π«£ 9:18 am
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Day 579: 31st July 2023 | I’m attending the online class even though I don’t feel well π
I am feeling proud of myself but am feeling worse the longer I sit up, so, I hope I get through it π 2:55 pm