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Day 812: 21st March 2024 | It Turns out I am lonely and it’s affecting me more than I thought π₯Ήπ’
I feel so guilty. I am so lucky in so many ways, and yet I feel trapped inside my own mind π I am ok around others but as soon as I am alone I withdraw so much I’m not achieving all the things that I need to do π Why do I feel like
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Day 811: 20th March 2024 | Thank you for the kind thoughts and wishes yesterday βΊοΈ
Video says it all π Goodnight x 10:20 pm Update: My soup tastes delicious and is so simple to cook. I’m counting down the minutes until it’s cooked. I would happily have some of the liquid part of the soup rightnow, but some beans in the soup mix still need to soften. 10:38 p.m
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Day 810: 19th March 2024 | So anxious I can’t stop crying π
At least I was able to cancel my chiropractor appointment without being charged cancellation fees. I really need help. I need to get security cameras set up but I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m in such a bad state right now I’ve made it to my couch but am still crying. I wanted to
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I feel so anxious it’s hard to breathe ..
I’m going in waves. I want to cry and yet I want my confidence back. I feel so lost sometimes. Maybe that’s why I’m not rushing leaving for this trip. I’m not even going to Knotfest I’ve decided. As much as I want to see Distured live, and I really really do, I was exhausted
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Day 808: 17th March 2024 | Too hot and tired to do anything today π₯΅
Considering I did nothing today, I was surprised by how anxious I have felt π Not sure why, but it’s not a nice feeling π I’m doing better now. I am in bed now and going to sleep. There are things I need to do tomorrow βΊοΈ 9:54 pm
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Day 807: 16 March 2024 | My tattoo is almost finished π
I can’t see what I’m typing where the title goes on my phone, so I will update it on my laptop once this is uploaded βΊοΈ The third and final butterfly was tattooed today. It is completely different to how I had initially planned it, which I will discuss in a follow-up video when I
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Day 805: 14th March 2024 | I’m so tired
Today’s date always brings up memories. .. I’m good; toast is ready 10:27 pm
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Day 803: 11th March 2024 | Spoiler alert β οΈ I realised being mad was not going to help anything π
I had “always come from love” going around in my head and that’s when I recognised for the first time that asking Ellie to leave was coming from love for myself and that’s ok. I was polite and told her I loved but I was just too tired and sore myself to deal with tonight.
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Day 799: 8th March 2024 | Almost forgot to make this π
Glad I remembered in time π I’m definitely ready to sleep now π΄ 8:44 p.m.
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Day 798: 7th March 2024 | I almost forgot to post this π
I really need to get a new phone π¬ I can barely see what I’m typing π«£π 9:51 p.m. 10:38 p.m.