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Day 1116: 16th February 2025 | Feeling flat but better than last night ๐
I spoke to Juice, who helped me see a different perspective, which was really helpful. I am ok. Well, flat anyway. I know I’m strong, but some things just really hurt. What happened hurts so much. Finding out I’m hated just for being me is gutwrenching. I’m not going to go back to Melbourne. I…
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Day 1115: 15th February 2025 | This is bad, guys. I can’t stop crying. I’m a mess ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Merv finally went and saw Dollar Man this afternoon for a number of hours. When I asked how it went when he returned four hours later, Merv said he wanted nothing to do with me. Blamed it on smoking weed. The “drugs” that I use. Which is absolute bullshit, given he never had a problem…
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Day 1114: 14th of February 2025 | Happy Valentine’s Day ๐
I’m going walking at 5 a.m. tomorrow morning. I am very much looking forward to it. Praying that my feet are ok. Thought I’d be asleep by now, but Merv and I watched a movie. Blended. It’s old but funny lol Time for me to go to sleep now ๐ด 9:53 p.m.
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Day 1113: 13th February 2025 | I’m too tired type ๐ด
Tiredness has hit me all at once just a little while ago. In a very intense way. I’m struggling to write this. I need to go to bed. 10:18 p.m.
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Day 1112: 12th February 2025 | I’ve been feeling so down and flat, I got a coldsore today ๐
And it hurts. Wasn’t there this morning. But it has been getting bigger since it started. Thankfully, I have coldsore cream, which I’ve been using since it appeared. Besides the office, our home is looking good. It looks much bigger, now that we have changed the living room around. Merv and I did some light…
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Day 1111: 11th February 2025 | I just turned my lamp off and remembered this video was not made ๐
Merv is not feeling well, and neither am I ๐ฅ I seriously need to sleep ๐ด 9:20 p.m.
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Day 1110: 10th February 2025 | My neighbour friend is moving ๐
It’s definitely the right thing for her to do, but I will miss her and her husband. It has come as such a surprise. Not going to lie, I did have a cry ๐ข I can barely keep my eyes open right now. I’m watching Married At First Sight with Merv and then am going…
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Day 1109: 9th February 2025 | There were sooo many kangaroos along the side of the road…
I am very happy I had enough room on my phone to take this video. I apologise for my lack of video skills ๐ It’s been a strange few days this past week. But I am 100% at a place where I want to do stuff. Plus, the real estate lady is coming at 10:00…
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Day 1108: 8th February 2025 | This video won’t make sense until I upload the first one I made…
It’s on my other laptop, but it’s not currently connected to the internet, and I’m falling asleep ๐ด I’ll upload it tomorrow. Merv said he wanted me to. I’m extremely upset, crying, and yelling in it. He is sitting next to me in the video. It will definitely have a content warning on it. I…
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Day 1107: 7th February 2025 | I’m so bloated and in so much pain that I look four months pregnant ๐
My body is dealing with so much stuff at the moment. I haven’t vaped e-cigarettes in ten days, I think. I really need to work out what the day was as it’s getting harder to remember how many days it’s been. At least ten that I’m aware of. Then, on top of that, I had…