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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Part 2 – I’m the exception 🙂
Heard from my friend this morning asking if I am ok.. I explained how badly I was triggered by the Reddit post and that I now realise I should have put my phone away instead of messaging him. He let me know that by getting to know me, he has seen that he can be…
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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Feeling better than yesterday
I am very aware that I am being triggered easily so now fully realise that I need to stay away from situations that can lead me straight into my darkness.. plus I need to really remember that I have valuim when I break since that is what it’s for..
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It’s started raining which always helps me feel better..
I love the rain. Listening to it is so soothing 😌
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 4 – TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm 😭
I tried really hard to not let the urges to hurt myself get to me, but today, unfortunately, they did 😔
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 3 – Imaging I am being judged badly 😐
Lying on my bed helps me feel better but so far it’s been accompanied by a side of guilt. I am not quite sure if I am actually feeling guilty or like I should but that is because I can just imagine what people would say about me going to the chemist in the morning..…
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 2 – I feel worse 😔
I definitely did not feel like this when I got up or went to the chemist this morning. Until I got home, I was sure my throat felt funny due to smoking a joint after so long. I think actually going to pick up stuff from the chemist may have taken more out of me…
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Not feeling 100%
I thought my throat was a bit sore because I had smoked half a joint since it had been a while since I had. . I decided it would probably be smart to put together a kit of everything I could need in case I was to become unwell as I have no one to…
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Day 33: 31st January 2022 – An emotional roller coaster of a day…
TRIGGER WARNING: suicide and self harm mentioned .. What a day.. plus it’s so hot and muggy that I totally confused myself a number of times while making this video.. I have cried from eyes out, to cleaning my house, to melting on this computer chair typing this up
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Sebastian has been lying in his water bowl for days now..
At least now it’s clean with fresh water after he finally moved so I could clean it 🐍🤭
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Day 32: 30th January 2022 – Part 3 – Feeling so much better 😊
I ended up having only one glass of wine and I didn’t even finish the joint since it turns out I actually enjoy my vape better 😆
