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It’s started raining which always helps me feel better..
I love the rain. Listening to it is so soothing ๐
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 4 – TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm ๐ญ
I tried really hard to not let the urges to hurt myself get to me, but today, unfortunately, they did ๐
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 3 – Imaging I am being judged badly ๐
Lying on my bed helps me feel better but so far it’s been accompanied by a side of guilt. I am not quite sure if I am actually feeling guilty or like I should but that is because I can just imagine what people would say about me going to the chemist in the morning..…
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 2 – I feel worse ๐
I definitely did not feel like this when I got up or went to the chemist this morning. Until I got home, I was sure my throat felt funny due to smoking a joint after so long. I think actually going to pick up stuff from the chemist may have taken more out of me…
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Not feeling 100%
I thought my throat was a bit sore because I had smoked half a joint since it had been a while since I had. . I decided it would probably be smart to put together a kit of everything I could need in case I was to become unwell as I have no one to…
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Day 33: 31st January 2022 – An emotional roller coaster of a day…
TRIGGER WARNING: suicide and self harm mentioned .. What a day.. plus it’s so hot and muggy that I totally confused myself a number of times while making this video.. I have cried from eyes out, to cleaning my house, to melting on this computer chair typing this up
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Sebastian has been lying in his water bowl for days now..
At least now it’s clean with fresh water after he finally moved so I could clean it ๐๐คญ
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Day 32: 30th January 2022 – Part 3 – Feeling so much better ๐
I ended up having only one glass of wine and I didn’t even finish the joint since it turns out I actually enjoy my vape better ๐
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I have started watching this and it’s already so good! ๐
Plus I absolutely love Kristen Bell. Can easily see myself binging this show ๐
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Day 32: 30th January 2022 – Part 2 – Pain levels are high and mood is low…
TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide and self harm is mentioned in this video. I feel flat, and in pain and constantly reading about about how all people who haven’t had the covid vaccine are ‘anti vaxxers’ who get their news from Facebook, is driving me INSANE! I don’t even have social media, yet am lumped into the…