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Boss meeting the next door neighbours dog ๐
Boss has been outside before when the dog next door is out, but it’s usually with one of it’s owners so Boss barks his head off. Because of this I have been closing the doggy door since he’s really loud. Today though he is being quite and calm which is nice and even better I
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Sometimes cooking yourself a nice healthy yummy meal is exactly what the doctor ordered ๐
Considering how up amd down my mood has been, I am happy to say that I have managed to cook myself yummy healthy vegan home cooked meals ๐ Sometimes this is all one can manage.. and on those days.. I remind myself.. that that is enough ๐
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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Part 4 – I cancelled the dentist …
And in the process remembered why my throat is actually so sore ๐คฆโโ๏ธ Last week there were literally layer’s of skin coming out if my mouth.. it was so gross.. I told my doctor about it and even took a picture since it seemed so surreal.. So not totally sure how I completely spaced on
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So my picture fell down again..
And I have just realised sitting here in my bed looking at it that I in fact have a spare concrete nail ๐คฆโโ๏ธ Yet I still spent money on Command picture frame holds and stood on a chair holding the middle piece up because it’s been annoying the crap out of me, not being on
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Part of me still thinks I need to cancel my dentist appointment since I still don’t feel well ๐ค๐ท
I am obviously super happy that I don’t have covid but I am lying on my bed and my head, throat and body still hurts ๐ I know I need to see the dentist as soon as I can but I don’t think going out while feeling unwell is a good idea or fair on
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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Part 3 – The results were negative! ๐ฅณ
The results came through as a text message when I was making the last video (part 2 of today) and it says.. Covid was NOT DETECTED ๐ฅณ
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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Part 2 – I’m the exception ๐
Heard from my friend this morning asking if I am ok.. I explained how badly I was triggered by the Reddit post and that I now realise I should have put my phone away instead of messaging him. He let me know that by getting to know me, he has seen that he can be
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Day 35: 2nd February 2022 – Feeling better than yesterday
I am very aware that I am being triggered easily so now fully realise that I need to stay away from situations that can lead me straight into my darkness.. plus I need to really remember that I have valuim when I break since that is what it’s for..
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It’s started raining which always helps me feel better..
I love the rain. Listening to it is so soothing ๐
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Day 34: 1st February 2022 – Part 4 – TRIGGER WARNING: Self harm ๐ญ
I tried really hard to not let the urges to hurt myself get to me, but today, unfortunately, they did ๐