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That gap is now really noticeable and annoying..
So, it’s now at the top of my to do list for tomorrow βοΈ It’s 9.24PM and I’m going in waves of having a decent amount of energy to very low. Well, actually, now that I’ve stopped to type this, tiredness is hitting me in the face π΄ I didn’t get much sleep last night.
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Day 59: 26th February 2022 | Part 2 | Working on uni wall notes is better than tv + I smoked a joint π€£
Went and got dog from next door to play with Boss. They had such a good time and are now worn out. Neighbours dog stayed about 50 minutes before I took him back π I have changed my mind about what I said in my last video. I still like joints π€£ Now I’m cutting
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Day 59: 26th February 2022 – I now understand why people are always saying “relax”! π
For as long as I can remember, people have always told me I need to relax. Constantly. Even though I always said I was relaxed. Being told this all the time drove me mad.. But then last night, while lying on my bed, it was like all at once I became conscious of how tense
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I swear my house is making strange noises …
I want to be asleep. Considering I have been up since 7.30AM I am surprised I’m not. Only had two dexamfetamine too. The last one approximately 11.50AM. So, I at least know, definitely no more than two. I have asked google home to set an alarm for 7.30AM. It’s in my lounge but set to
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I’m still awake at 12.03m π
I know it’s not really a void in the traditional sense but I still love writing my blogs and making my videos and sharing my life. I believe this is my purpose. I share so that hopefully other’s don’t feel alone. I know what that can do to a person. I don’t ever want anyone
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I’ve just worked out why I don’t want to tell the ‘Mr X’ story..
Huh. Just like that, it’s finally hit me. I say I don’t trust him because I know I shouldn’t. And on the surface level I don’t.. But … I have just realised why I haven’t shared the story, when my website has been open for over a year. Which I opened on his wife’s birthday.
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Day 58: 25th February 2022 | Part 4 | The hub has great speakers π π
I definitely don’t need to worry about my home being to silent or what I’m going to listen to mysic on, since I’ve connected the google hub to my Spotify account π
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One thing is for sure, I definitely watched too much TV πΊ π
Because it just feels so strange not having it on. Or even just Friends on as background noise. But I am already noticing the difference between this evening and being far more focused on what I am actually doing then in the past. I haven’t heard from Grant and given the day I know he’s

