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My bed is my happy place when I’m sad ๐
It would be funny if it didn’t feel so bad, just how drastically my mood has changed from this morning. I think this book for strategies to deal with ADHD really triggers me. I still haven’t accepted that my life has been made so much harder when it didn’t need to be. I am still…
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I want my mum ๐ญ๐ญ
And yet we don’t even have a relationship anymore. She couldn’t even read the last message I sent her. Just told me “I’m not reading that”. Yet, all I’ve ever wanted is a good relationship with my mum. She’s still the one my inner child needs to tell me it’s all going to be ok.…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 5 | Tattoo Lazer Removal No.2
The actual procedure. The numbing cream worked this time! ๐ฅณ So grateful for being able to film this ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 4 | Tattoo Lazar Removal No.1
Just setting up
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I don’t understand why but I’m in tears ๐ข
Sometimes it really does feel like I am never ever going to be enough. Do enough. Be worthy ofy place in this world. I am reading this book on ADHD and yet instead of it helping me, it just sometimes enhances how much I have fucked up my life. I am so angry at myself…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 3 | I am achieving more than I realised ๐
One of the things I love about Andrew is that I learn something new every time we hang out together. Plus he never makes me feel crazy when I explain in person some of the things I talk about on here, or don’t know how to talk about, like my story regarding Mr X. He…
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | Part 2 | I’m glad wrapped up ๐คฃ๐คฃ
I really hope the numbing cream works this time because lazer removal hurts like a SOB! ๐ Two hours until I need to leave for the appointment so time to actually do some work ๐ It’s such an awkward place for glad wrapping ๐
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Day 98: 6th April 2022 | I’m up before my alarm!! ๐ฅณ๐ฅณ
Last night I really wasn’t feeling well and ended up taking two rat tests but both were negative thankfully. I have tattoo lazer removal today which is why I took them, but I feel good today so I’m happy ๐
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I really need to remember and focus on the fact I am good enough right now.
That thought, or more correctly, that feeling is sometimes really hard to sit with. Especially on days like today. Days when I’m so exhausted I’m almost crying. Days when just getting up to do anything takes so much effort. I was completely spent by the time I walked out of the eye store. By the…
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Looks like there was a reason one side of the back gate was never opened ๐ฌ๐
Fuck fuck fuck… I am too tired for this ๐ฐ The bike stand definitely needs to be put back together correctly when I go for a ride next too. At least I can get it to balance well enough to close. Better than before and as long as Boss doesn’t jump on it, it should…