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I’ve just realised that based on current rental prices, I actually don’t have first months rent and bond 😔
The more I think about it, the more likely I think there is a very real chance that I may may end up living in my car for awhile. There are so many news articles just showing up on my google news feed about how many people are living in their cars or tents in…
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Day 143: 21st May 2022 | Part 2 | I watched myself back. This is where I’m at 🙄😌
I don’t usually watch my videos back straight away but today I did. I tried to do some work stuff but didn’t have it in me. So, instead I vaped some weed, watched the video and am now about to watch the latest episode of the Flight Attendant. I am also holding onto how much…
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Day 143: 21st May 2022 | It’s long but I needed to get this off my chest
I watched last night’s videos last night. I think I have clarified a few things I said. I am feeling better, which is good. Considering it hasn’t even been 24 hours, I am proud of the turnaround time, from crying my eyes out, feeling like I couldn’t breathe, to getting here, where I am calm…
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I am going to sleep. Time: 7:17pm
I can’t keep my eyes open any longer. I know I have so many options. And tomorrow is a new day.. But right now, I just need to sleep
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I feel sad. My inner child is so scared. Of everything 😔🥺
It’s 5:53pm and I am in bed in the dark watching tv. I love my home. I don’t want to move. But life happens doesn’t it… But for now, I feel safe when in bed with Boss.
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Looking at houses is just too depressing 🥺 at least rate I think I’d rather sleep in my car 😥
I still have so much to do. Life carries on. And yet, I lay here, on my bed. Under the blanket with Boss, completely stuck in a strange state of limbo. I have watched today’s videos back and I think it’s helped me see something.. We are all broken. The entire human race, in my…
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Day 142: 20th May 2022 | Part 2 | Calmer :) Worst case I’ll sleep in the back of my wagon with Boss
I will not take the first thing I see and rush myself through this process. I am now calmer and looking at this from a different perspective. Sure, there could be complications, but I know everything always gets figured out. Boss and I sleep in the back of my wagon when camping, and everything I…
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Day 142: 20th May 2022 | Just when I was starting to feel really secure…
I still don’t understand why, when things like this happen, I first gut instinct is to panic and cry. Maybe because I have felt so alone my whole life. I do everything alone and I just wasn’t expecting this. At least not today. I truly believe the Universe looks after me and that everything is…
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Day 141: 19th May 2022 | Part 4 | I need more weed 🤣🤣🤣🤣
I talked. Like I always do. I don’t totally remember what exactly I said. Will be fun to find out when I watch back in the morning with coffee 😆😆 I’m waking up Rachel for the next 10 days or so, meaning I have plenty of extra hours for my morning ritual of having a…
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Day 141: 19th May 2022 | Part 3 | I cut myself off again!🤦♀️😆 I’ve had wine and weed!🍾
Oh my gosh.. I have to learn to be more careful haha 😂 I keep accidently stopping the recording 😆 There’s a good chance there are stories started that may not be finished 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 UPDATE: It’s the 20th at 4:39pm and hadn’t realised I wasn’t up to date from last night.
