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I wonder if it’s to do with that dodgy pet rescue ๐ค
I mean that’s the only thing I can think of that could be why all of a sudden I have too much trauma. If that was it, at least that would make sense. But the only reason I haven’t called the taxation department to query about it, is because of my friendship with Nichele and
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Every time I start crying Boss runs away ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ
Which just makes me cry even more. I allowed myself to believe that I had finally found someone, some people who completely accepted me into their friendship group. I feel so stupid. I’ve never been part of a friendship group for long. And the last one was high school, say age 16. I really starting
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Is everyone that knows me, ashamed of me?
That thought has now been going around and around in my head for sometime. Along with all the people I know who don’t want others to know they read this blog or remind me why there is no way anyone in a professional sense can know of this. I mean that has to mean, I’m
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Day 109: 17th April 2022 | Part 3 | People come and people go.. I accept this โก
It has taken me most of my life to truly understand this with acceptance, but I am so happy to say that I am finally in a place where I can get past the hurt at a much faster rate. Something like this would have floored me, probably even a year ago. Don’t get me
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Day 109: 17th April 2022 | Part 2 | Nichele just ended her friendship with me via text ๐ญ
She told me we’d be friends for life. That I would never have to worry about spending another public holiday alone again. I thought it was just because she’s only recently out of the hospital that I haven’t seen her for Easter yet. I messaged to ask if she wanted to catch up for coffee
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So much better! Hopefully this solves the bug problem ๐ ๐
I have taen everything out that I can. Besides the big blue fan, but it was difficult enough to tae the light down without any help, so leaving as is. I have vacuumed and mopped the entire tent, including taking out the second tent bottom to wash both sides and hung on the line. I
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Ok, I feel silly ๐
I truly had no idea that I had left draining the water to this extent ๐ Of course the bugs are still coming in!! ๐คฆโโ๏ธ Honestly, right now, my biggest realisation and takeaway from this whole ordeal, is that I have clearly just been far more checked out of reality than I’ve fully realised.. Thankfully
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The bugs are still taking up some of my energy ๐๐
I have no clue where they are coming from anymore. The tent is closed. I’ve even closed the door to the room, as much as I hate doing that. But I swear they are following me. Randy saw approximately 2 of them and yet there’s at least 5 flying around my face while I listen
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All photos and video’s have been saved and deleted from my phone ๐
I had to get Randy to actually do it, but at least it’s done! ๐คฃ
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Day 109: 17th April 2022 | Randy has helped me so much!! Now one of my textbooks can talk to me! ๐
I am so happy!! Now I can read my textbook online while it reads out loud to me! ๐ Had a lovely evening with Randy with him helping me understand technology better. I’m still not comfortable deleting things from my phone. So, going to get Randy to do it ๐ Update: I’ve dropped Randy off