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I think I figured out my new mantra ๐
Everything is on my side. Everything is love. I know I’m looked after. Here for something I don’t understand in entirety… But I know I’m looked after. I can see it at play in every part of my life Even when I can’t feel it ‘Everything is on my side’
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I’ve just heard it’s raining ๐ง ๐
I’m still currently binge watching Sex and the City. I have just started season 6 episode 15. Well it was in between episodes that I heard the rain and its me so happy I paused the tv to listen for a bit.. On another note, my freshly clean vape is so amazing!! ๐ ๐คฃ
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Day 173: 20th June 2022 | Part 3 | Therapy recording from today โบ
As most of you are already aware, I film my therapy sessions with my psychologist and share them since they help me so much, maybe they might help someone else too ๐
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I wish I could be like Carrie…
When she and Big ended she kept dating. Moved on from Mr Big.. But they still came back together.. Though then again, it’s not like I haven’t tried… So I have changed my mind. I’m going to stop wishing my life was like someone else’s and enjoy the life I have. Time to really focus…
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Much better!!!!
Now it’s time to try it ๐ Now if only the weed would stay in the capsules ๐
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Day 173: 20th June 2022 | Part 2 | Throwback to the very first video I ever made in 2017 ๐๐
As many of you are aware, since I’ve talked about them in my current videos, I started making videos in 2017. I made a minimum of one video a day for an entire year, just like the videos I make now. Back then, I wasn’t ready to share as soon as I made them. The…
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I am loving this book ๐๐๐ฅฐ
I am finding this book really helpful. I am very aware that I have suffered from emotional dysregulation for the majority of my life due to my traumatic childhood, which resulted in severe BPD. But I have been working on myself and getting better at regulating my emotions for year’s. I know I still have…
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No wonder it hasn’t been working well ๐คฆโโ๏ธ๐
It’s obviously been a lot longer than I realised since I have cleaned my weed vape.
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Day 173: 20th June 2022 | Learning to be more emotionally intelligent ๐๐ฅฐ
It’s Monday morning at 11:33am. I’ve been awake since 8am. I am spending today reading my “Emotional Intelligence For Dummies” book and really enjoying it! I have my psychology appointment today at 4pm which I am grateful for. Plus my psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday and GP on Thursday. I will definitely be asking about increasing…
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According to health line.com, it appears that I am experiencing rapid bipolar cycles ๐
I knew my mood stabilisers needed to be increased. I guess if nothing else, I am extremely connected to something allowing me to be fully attuned to what I need in the moment. Like knowing I needed to come home today. Plus, make a doctor’s appointment. Honestly, I have no idea. I’m too close to…