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I feel so sad right now π
I know why everything is so much harder. Why I continually sink into the sadness. I have been so completely broken for so long now now that it’s obviously going to take a long time to heal. Everything is making me cry. Most of time I’m ok but then there are days like today that
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I don’t want to be at uni anymore π’
Once the tears start it takes so long for them to stop π I couldn’t even hang clothes on the clothes horse because I was crying so much π So, now I’m lying on my bed, hanging my teddy bear trying to help calm myself down while I wait for the valuim to kick in.
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I’ve called it a day. Time to rest.
So far, I have had a nice day. I have started writing my assignment, which I’m happy about. If I try to force myself to keep working on it, I know I’ll end up in a bad mood, which will only make tomorrow so much harder. I just have to ensure that I…. Don’t even
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Day 213: 30th July 2022 | Part 3 | How I’m currently feeling about uni aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Basically just reminding myself to breathe so I don’t drown in overwhelm.
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Day 213: 30th July 2022 | Part 2 | My assignment is doing my head in! Please send me positive vibes!
After scrolling on Reddit for approximately two hours after this morning’s video, I realised that avoiding my assignment definitely wasn’t helping me. I managed to snap myself out of the funk I was in. I have now been at my desk working on it for the past three hours or so. Thankfully, I have managed
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I have a plan!!
I’m not getting anywhere with uni while trying to work at home. This is just have to admit to myself. But I have remembered just now, while on Reddit, scrolling and wasting time instead of actually getting dressed and starting, that earlier in the year, I realised that I needed to go out to study.
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Day 213: 30th July 2022 | I’ll be making daily videos until I die π
These videos are the one thing I love doing more than anything else π
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Yes, Yes, Yes! Exactly!β‘
Today has been a lovely day βΊοΈ
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It was so spicy I literally feel unwell right now π
I may end up having a nap due to how I am currently feeling π I only have two episodes of Joey, one of which I am halfway through since I was watching while I was eating.
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I’m watching / listening to this week’s seminar while making curry ππ
I have just realised that I need to listen to the seminars online each week as well as attend them on campus for extra exposure. Also, staying up to do with the weekly readings and content as well as work on my assignment is what I need to be doing. Hell, I want to get