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Day 217: 3rd August 2022 | Part 2 | I must be stoned π I thought it was day 218 already π€£
So.. you know how I sometimes need to do something one last time… well … Today I smoked my last bong mix … after having a conversation with someone at uni about how it is such a shit way to smoke weed I lost myself at the end there lol and definitely in the moment
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Day 217: 3rd August 2022 | 6 am wake up by knocking on the door is AWESOME! So happy and grateful! π
It’s 7:46 am and I’m ready to leave for uni βΊ
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Neither tanned nor showered π
I think I knew from the moment I started watching my video that I probably wouldn’t make it. Though I did try to convince myself while finishing filling up my pillbox that I would at least still shower. I wanted to wash my hair βΊ Until I realised that I was getting woken up in
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Day 216: 2nd August 2022 | Part 2 | When I try to consciously think of something I lose myself π π
I have no idea how to explain what I am thinking right now and too much to do to figure it out π Thoughts and feelings from today π
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What am I putting out into the world ?
Me. I am putting out me. No more. No less. That is why I have faith. This is what I’m supposed to do.
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Catching up watching myself while filling up my pillbox βΊοΈ
There is a video almost finished uploading now, which is why I realised it makes more sense to watch what I have said, since a dairy doesn’t help if you don’t actually know what you’ve said π
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Day 216: 2nd August 2022 | Stop asking for stuff privately on email!π
I feel like I shouldn’t have to keep saying this π I am going to work on uni weekly content today, and not my assignment, so here’s hoping for a better, calmer day βΊ
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Day 215: 1st August 2022 | Part 2 | OMG I ended up bawling my eyes out again!π
I had to talk it out but couldn’t reach anyone to talk to in person, so I took two valiums and talked to my camera like I always do. I did talk to Rachel, Faith and Graham via messages before talking to my camera, but I was in pretty bad shape and felt terrible for
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Day 215: 1st August 2022 | Today is a better day! π
Grant called to make sure I got up at 6:49 am. We video chatted for an hour while I explained what I needed to do and why I think yesterday went the way it did. I’m feeling much better about my uni assignment now, so that’s great. I do have notes that I have written
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Day 214: 31st July 2022 | I have cried basically all afternoon π₯Ίπ
Including this video. I’m sorry. I just can’t stop crying π