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Day 2071: 1st August 2025 | I’m feeling more like me this evening thankfully..
But I’m so tired, I am getting into bed to go to sleep. 9:00pm
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Day 2070: 31st July 2025 | I am ok. Even though I don’t feel it..
I think this will make sense. 8:47pm
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Day 2069: 30th July 2025 | I’m beyond confused. I cried most of today ๐ข
I know I was angry yesterday but today I’m just sad. Anxious. Confused. Flat and humiliated. And it’s all probably just in my head. I give up in the real world. I’ll attend events when I can. But otherwise I’m coming to you. Like in the past..I need my camera back. My conversations with myself.
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Day 2068: 29th July 2025 | This has become a negative day, which I’ve cried throughout most of ๐ญ
Everything has just suddenly gone from good only a few days ago to absolute shit and I have spent all day hating myself. I’ve literally stayed in bed all day except to use the bathroom and have a cigarette. Then right after making this video, I see a missed call with a message to listen
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Day 2067: 28th July 2025 | Days like today make me wonder why I still make these videos ๐ค
I feel sad and flat. Have most of the day except when pulling myself together long enough to attend horse therapy where I volunteered to help out, and this evening with puppy obedience class introduction. Now I’m in bed. About to pass out. At least I finished my book club book in time. 9:17pm
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Day 2066: 27th July 2025 | Period pain has me feeling like crap ๐
I genuinely feel really ill ๐ค 7:04pm
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Day 2065: 26th July 2025 | Today has been a mind fu*k of a day… ๐
I have no idea if I’m allowed to write fu*k, let alone on a title ๐ ๐ I’m guessing it’s ok ๐คทโโ๏ธ๐ Just one of those days..Which I couldn’t even really talk about. Still too close to it. Being today and all ๐คญ I really do need to sit down and talk as though I am
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Day 2064: 25th July 2025 | A video to say I’m not making a video went longer than expected ๐
I don’t think I’ll get to read through much of my book. I’m so close to crashing ๐ด 7:59pm
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Day 2063: 24th July 2025 | I can barely keep my eyes open and it’s only 8:48pm! ๐ด๐
Going to see if I make it to the end of the tv show Merv and I are watching ๐ฅฑ 8:50pm
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Day 2062: 23rd July 2025 | Surprised I’m still awake ๐ฅฑ
I’m looking forward to falling asleep ๐ด 8:59pm