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Day 505: 18th May 2023 | Talking to all of you to help me stop crying from the pain ๐ฅบ๐ฃ
The lump is now big enough to visibly see it now and the pain just keeps on increasing. It’s definitely not helping my overacting imagination ๐ I am finally seeing my doctor this afternoon and getting scans done. I am not looking forward to the drive there and back but still better than sitting in
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Day 504: 17th May 2023 | Spent most of today in bed due to severe pain ๐ฅด
I think the lump is bigger than yesterday. It hurts so bad. I am not looking forward to the drive to my doctor’s appointment but am so looking forward to getting my chest scanned since something is clearly wrong ๐ฎโ๐จ I am watching The Midnight Club on Netflix which is pretty good, so going to
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Drink more water every day
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life? I have been trying to make myself drink at least one and a half of liters every day and even then I know that is still below the recommended adult daily water intake ๐ง I may manage to do this for a day, but I
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Day 503: 16th May 2023 | Feeding the horses with Cassidy and her sister ๐
I am having a lovely day today. I knew I was heading to Cassidy’s place for the day, though, I left my house much later than I thought I would ๐ Every time I move wrong or breathe too deeply I feel like I’m being stabbed, the pain is worse and now there is a
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I just talked myself down from a pretty severe panic attack
And I am so extremely incredibly proud of myself at this moment 8:32 pm. I am sitting on the floor of my toilet typing this, since I run here feeling like I was going to vomit ๐คข I didn’t, but once again the pain is so bad and I know there wasn’t a lump there
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It’s fascinating watching myself back sometimes ๐ ๐
All of the things that I experience while making my video actually don’t come across when watched it back. It really is very trippy lol I just wish I remembered when I made them ๐คฃ This โฌ๏ธ video is the 6th video in a row that I am watching. I don’t think I’ll get through
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OMG I must finish and send the email to the tattoo store ๐๐คฆโโ๏ธ๐
I have written the email in my head several times now ๐คฃ In reality, I have the copied and pasted messages that I sent the last tattooist who didn’t complete the work he started on my back let alone any of the other tattoos that I want. I still can’t believe this tattoo place is
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Day 502: 15th May 2023 | I have way more to watch to catch up on myself than I realised ๐
I have been going over the video I made last night in my mind today, slightly amused at how awkwardly I tried to explain what I did as a job once over … I honestly don’t know as a lot of the timeline in my head is slightly off … but more than eight at
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It’s definitely going to take a while for me to get used to ๐
I was late to the vet, but thankfully, they didn’t mind as no one else was there. I thought he was getting the bandages replaced, so I was surprised when I my vet said that he won’t be getting a new one. She did warn me that he would lick it since a) he hasn’t
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I need to get in the shower but my book is so good I just want to read all day โบ๏ธ
I have to take Boss to the vet in an hour though and absolutely need to wash my hair before going anywhere. I also need to get petrol and go to the supermarket and past Juices work to put cardboard in the skip. I am somewhat amused by the stories I told last night in