I am so out of it right now.  that Merv and I have just discussed the fact that I need to take my ADHD out of my daily medication for tomorrow.

I am crashing earlier and earlier and my body just can’t take it any longer. Every single bit of me is in pain. It’s only 7:11 PM and all I want to do is go to bed.

But I can’t wake up to how the kitchen table and living room currently look. I honestly don’t know what happens. But it makes me want to cry.

Which I did this morning talking out loud to myself having a conversation with myself. It was getting a little bit heated until Merv came and gave me hug.

I really thought everything would be back on track well and truly by now, but it’s not, and that worries me and makes me sad. Because I obviously know it’s my fault. Though Merv doesn’t like hearing me say it.

7:18 PM