The two videos I made yesterday (October 28th, 2025) unfortunately didn’t upload. This was due to a lot of confusion. I honestly thought I had done it, but it turns out it was the October 27th video that uploaded instead!

This video started out because I thought it would be funny, but like always, I ended up talking about completely different stuff too.

This one was filmed right after I got home from the dentist.

I really wanted to upload it straight away, go figure, but I somehow made a terrible mistake trying to get order back to my channel.

I uploaded the second part and had Merv’s phone open next to me while checking everything on my website (www.lifesastory.blog).

What I didn’t realise was that I was logged into my account on Merv’s phone, so what I thought I was seeing as public wasn’t. I was confused as to why my phone showed it available to watch while another was still “processing.”

I’ve been making these videos long enough, but I was exhausted, my whole mouth and tongue numb, and I just wasn’t feeling well. Since the video looked viewable on both devices, I thought I’d uploaded the second video twice.

I can only upload one video at a time because some run longer, and that can mess up the order of the days and dates. The order is extremely important to me.

When I deleted what I thought was a double-up of part 2, the actual “bathroom” video disappeared. I burst into tears. I was so upset that Merv came to console me.

I was a mess trying to figure out how to get it back, watching YouTube clips but getting nowhere. I was frustrated by the extra work I’d created when I already have so much to do, so I shut everything down and walked away for a bit.

YouTube had removed the video for “nudity/sexual content,” which I immediately appealed because I knew I hadn’t broken any rules. Thankfully, they reinstated it but restricted it to R18+. They even provided the timestamp, and I plan to appeal that too.

My videos are for everyone. When I have something to say, especially when it hits hard, I turn to my camera. Of course, I talk to Merv, but it’s not the same. I don’t have any real close friends to share deep conversations with, so I talk to you.

Anyone who’s watched for a while knows this channel is about being real, always. That’s why people connect with it.

Anyway, the video disappeared, and I was devastated. I still have it, and after both this and last night’s videos are uploaded, I’ll reupload the “bathroom video” with a message asking YouTube moderators to please read it before deleting it again.

There’s just so much to do, and time’s flying by, meaning every moment on my channel is time lost from packing, which needs to be done urgently.

I’ll upload yesterday’s part 2 straight after this one, with a short description, since I really have to get moving.

It turns out I hadn’t moved that particular video over to my channel yet, so it has no title or description. It now needs a message directed to YouTube’s human moderators to avoid the same issue. I decided to watch the 16.5 minute video before uploading it with messageto mods.

Merv and I watched it and it was completely innocent throughout the whole thing. I’d planned to appeal the age restriction based on the timestamp YouTube gave, but even that was innocent. Nothing showed.

Anyway, I have so much to do, and the morning’s getting away from me. Merv still needs to help me remove the dressings on my burns so I can shower.

I’ll upload the bathroom video when I have time to write YouTube a proper message. It felt wrong watching it through my gallery on the TV instead of YouTube, but I’ve learned a big lesson moving forward.

Sending love to all of you ♡

10:58 AM (29th October)