*Content warning* SA – I knew I needed to add this but completely forgot in the moment. I apologise for this.

This did not go how I thought it would. Nicole said something that never would have entered my head. The email I am going to write and send to my doctor, psychologist and psychiatrist needs to be well written.

Yesterday my doctor who means more to me than I can express, told me she can no  longer be my doctor or send me scripts. That caused me immediate anxiety. I literally burst into tears.

I need to be medicated to allow me to live a decent life. The chronic pain that I live with is excruciating. Without proper pain medication I stop being able to do so many things. This makes me incredibly nervous.

I am going to write the email now. I’m praying that my psychiatrist will at least prescribe me the medication I need in the meantime.

I have met three different doctors up here so far. None of which are suitable for what I need in my opinion. Well, the first one should be reported. The second one is no longer here, due to moving back to Brisbane with her husband, another doctor also leaving the clinic. The current one I’ve seen a couple of times doesn’t make me feel cared for or listened to properly. So, I’m praying Nicole is right in that Elean can help me find a new doctor.

Now I have to get back to cleaning the house.

12:47 p.m.