So, I asked Merv to call her into the living room and shut the bathroom door with my walking stick that I had thankfully bought in with me.

She has only just stopped crying now, and I think that might have something to do with Merv bribing her with something so she will be quiet.

It’s the first bath I’ve had in ages, though I don’t know why. My pain levels have been through the roof. Especially my feet, back, and shoulders. I’m not very good at looking after myself. I’m the first to admit that. Why? I have absolutely no idea. I think ADHD paralysis has a lot to do with it. That and the fact that I honestly can’t remember the last day I felt ok. Health wise.

I am feeling incredibly unwell today. I think I might be ovulating, but regardless of the time of the month, I just feel sick. My stomach and abdomen feel uneasy and sore to the touch constantly. And I’m over it.

Yesterday, I saw a doctor to get blood tests to check my liver due to the new anti depression medication I’m on. Which by the way, in my opinion, anyway, is literally a magic pill. I feel mentally better and far calmer than I have my whole life. That I remember. Though I’m not sure if it might potentially be altering my cognitive function, I am keeping that which much in mind.

When I was there, I asked to organise an appointment to get allergies and food tolerance tested. I know I’ve seen posts with people having had a bunch of different things tested along their arms. But I was told they don’t do that here. I am not sure why. I liked filming my doctor appointments. I miss Elean.

Happy is back outside the bathroom door crying, so I’m going to get up and open it for her and try again. Wish me luck 🙏

10:54 AM

Side note: my phone’s cover is in tatters. Hence, you can see some of it when I use wide screen 😅