https://youtu.be/EdMs9OBO3OE?si=_ucDXyEjEjsBwXLS

I can’t believe what I saw today. I evidently had not registered the actual physical side of what I was told regarding the surgery, cutting out all the dead flesh all the way to the bone.

I saw the actual leg bone. Inside Merv’s leg.

Then I saw it with added fluid. That was worse.

I took pictures and even a video for you. The video is of the vac pack being connected.

I’m still in shock. It has physically affected me. It makes me quesy just thinking about it.

I’m surprised I haven’t completely broken down yet. I have vaped throughout the day and before coming up to my room to help manage how I’m feeling today.

I will probably be asleep soon. Goodnight x

9:49 p.m.